Thorns of a Rose

5. What... Is Up With This Place?

The car ride wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be, we didn't make much small talk, we kept quiet in our own thoughts.

I knew we both wanted to say something but neither of us ever found the right words. I did however take the time to study him and get a good look at his face. He had small chestnut eyes and a very chiselled jaw, he could almost cut lines with it.

He was overall a very attractive male, one I could see myself being with, he would make a great mate. I had a quick glance over to his neck, there is no mate mark present... No Rose, don't even think about it. I mentally scolded myself, how could I even think about being with a male who isn't my mate?

Again....

Ryland was the first to break the silence. "So, why are you doing all of this?" He asked looking at me from the corner of his warm and inviting eyes. I could get lost forever just looking into them.

"Doing all of what?" I asked, sounding somewhat stupid.

"This, going to every pack. Why?" He actually sounded as if he was genuinely curious.

"I want to find my mate, move on with my life with him." My voice was quiet as I looked down to my fingers.

No one but the Alphas know the reason I was at there packs, Some I know have told there members, most ask me when I arrive if it is okay for the pack to know why I am here. I always say yes, why shouldn't they know that I am searching for my mate.

It also makes it easier for me to meet all of the unmated males of the pack, because who wouldn't want to meet their mate?

"You are a strong wolf to do this." He smiled at me.

But am I really? I keep asking myself this question, what's to say that I don't find him, then I go and try to find another Kol, another wolf that isn't mine just to benefit myself.

There is nothing stating otherwise, I am even looking at Ryland like he could be perfect for me. Even though he is not mine.

"Thank you." All I could do was smile back to him.

The rest of the drive was silent, neither of us really knew what to say to the other. I know that there was something he wanted to say. It was written all over his face.

It was the early hours of the morning, maybe three A.M when we did finally managed to arrive at his pack, well not his pack. Alpha Spector's pack.

No one was around which wasn't surprising considering just how early it was.

"The Luna set you up a room in the pack house, I can take you there now." Great just another Alpha who is already taken. I bitterly thought to myself. "Or you can stay with me." He smirked wiggling his eyebrows. "I of course will sleep on the couch." He innocently shrugged.

I knew it wasn't innocent. But I can't say that I didn't like the idea.

It could be nice for a night...

No. I can't.

On the off chance I meet my mate, I cannot risk smelling of another male. It just isn't right.

No, but thank you." I smiled. "I think it is best to stay where I am expected to be." I took a step back from him. Someone we had gotten a little too close to each other. Almost touching chests. It would be so easy for one of us to lean in and kiss the other we are that close.

But once again that is a terrible idea.

"I shall show you the way." He smiles gently, it is as though his smile could light up the darkest sky.