Thorns of a Rose

1. Moving On Or Running Away?

I decided that it was finally time for me to move on, I can't stay in this pack anymore, not when I am unwanted but who can really blame them.

I have no longer have any ties to this place. Nothing is keeping me here, not even the friendship that is starting to form between Kat and myself.

It is time for me to leave. I need to find a purpose in my life, I need to take the chance to find my real mate. Not just try to take one away from someone else because of the prospect of Jasmine, my cousin, finding me.

I can't be that type of wolf my whole life, my parents would be so disappointed in me if I continue down this path.

I need to move forward with my life, at least that is what I keep trying to tell myself. I know that deep down I am just trying to run away from my issues, run away from my mistakes.

I am a 24 almost 25-year-old wolf with nothing, no mate, no family and at the moment no real friends, which was of my own doing. I got caught out trying to play a dirty game

Which I didn't even know how to play

All for self-preservation, I shouldn't have done what I did but I can't take that back now.

Take a deep breathe, take a deep breath, this is the one thing that I keep repeating to myself in my head. I had one chance to ask this question properly and I didn't want to screw it up.

I had to do things the right way, for once in my messed up life.

"Kat?" I knocked on the door to her bedroom hoping and praying to the moon that she would be in here and that nobody else would be with her, I didn't know where else to look for her. I wanted to ask her this without Kol around. He still doesn't trust me, Not that I can blame him for that though. I tried to mess up the relationship between them more times then I can count on both of my hands.

"Come in!" She called out, she sounded happy, and I liked hearing that in her voice now. I really do regret how horribly I treated her, she is a saint to be able to forgive me for everything I did to ruin things with her mate. I messed things up so bad with her... So bad and she can still look me in the eye and have a friendly conversation.

I opened the door to find her admiring her pregnant stomach it was growing like crazy now that she was looking after herself and the fact that she had twins in there, they were due in about a month and despite having no ties to the pups, I already love them.

I could only hope that one day I have the opportunity to have a family, that is if my mate even accepts me if I find him, if he hasn't already moved on.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked nervously rubbing my hands together, I didn't know what to do with myself. Do I stand still like a statue, as to try and look small and pathetic? I don't know I am not good in situations where I have no control. I like to have control

"Go for it." She smiled at me, I still can't believe that she can be this nice to me after everything. I know I wouldn't be, but then again she is a better wolf than me.

"I was ah, wondering if I could maybe leave...?" I asked not wanting to make eye contact with her.

"Leave?" there was a hint of sadness in her voice.

"Leave where Rose?" she asked again in my silence.

"I feel it is better for everyone if I leave..." I don't know how I let those words escape my mouth. I looked up to see her big and warm chocolate eyes fill up to the brim with tears.

"You don't have to leave..." She cried.

"No one hates you, not anymore." I knew this was just her pregnancy hormones talking, she wouldn't normally cry over this conversation.