The Second Universe

Chapter 3

When Jasmine and I reached the park my stomach was full of nothing but excitement, I was nervous like a child performing a school play for the first time. I really want our plan to work, I really want to know who is this privacy attacker/ sexy cologne person. Thoughts of him being a sixty year old pervert sitting in his basement started swimming in my head and I could already feel the negativity rushing through my veins. Don't overthink it Tulip, just don't.

"You sit on the bench, I pretend to walk Maximus and watch from a distance, I have a good feeling about this mystery boy" Jasmine whispered to me like we were on some kind of under cover mission and disappeared.

I took a deep breath, sat on the bench, put my earphones in and played enjoy the silence. I was dressed in black yoga pants, a basic white t-shirt and white Nike's.My hair was tied in a pony tail  and my short center bangs were down, I wanted to dress comfortably to feel comfortable.I can't believe that for the first time ever I was waiting to find out if a mystery boy that smells good is going to invade my personal space or not, life really does flip around in a blink of an eye. I've been casually doing this routine for years now and this is the first time I felt both nervous and excited about it. Heat HEAT HEAT warm hands, warm fingers, WARM EVERYTHING, cologne, amazing cologne, same sexy perfect masculine cologne that makes your nose want to leave your face and attach itself to the smell. He came again, he's here again, sitting beside me again, listening to enjoy the silence with me again, he's here for me, he came back for me, or did he come back for the song? I don't know but he's here, why can't I see him, I hate the fact that I can't see him, I need to hear his voice, I need to touch him in order to create an image of him in my head but I can't do that. The song is still playing, he's calmly sitting there but he has no idea how much panic he's causing me right now. He's not a pedophile this is I'm sure of, if he was Jasmine would be beating the shit out of him now. We're one minute through the song and as a very quiet person, I've never felt the  urge to STOP ENJOYING THE SILENCE and speak. No speaking is a bad idea. But singing? I can sing along with the song in a low voice, but high enough for him to hear me, in the end he's only wearing one earphone. I suddenly start imagining us in some kind of musical happily singing and dancing while people in the park are watching and clapping. Go back to reality Tulip this is so not the time for creating a musical scenario in your big fat head. Sing Tulip, just sing, just do it.

" Vows are spoken, to be broken, feelings are intense, words are trivial, pleasures remain, so does the pain, words are meaningless and forgettable." I sing.

I am FREAKING out very very much, I just sang to a stranger, I just felt comfortable singing to a stranger, a stranger that I've seen twice, I wonder if he thinks I'm creepy now. Because who SINGS TO A STRANGER? hands his hands HIS WARM HANDS ARE TAKING OFF MY EARPHONES. I can feel my cheeks burning, my stomach is on fire, my hands are sweating. I'm drowning in so many mixed emotions of nervousness, suspense and excitement all at once. He put his earphone DOWN TOO, I felt him do that. Did I scare him away that much? Is my voice this bad? I think this is a polite way of him telling me girls who sing to strangers freak me out? Did he see my white cane? Does he know I'm blind. Breathe Tulip, take a breath Tulip, you need a breath before your thoughts explode all over the park.

"Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm, all I ever wanted, all I ever needed, is here in my arms, words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm, enjoy the silence" he sang.

Did he just? did he just sing? Somebody call 911 please, somebody come and collect Tulip's organs please because I think they're scattered all over the park. My ears can't process what they just heard.Melting, I am melting, my heart is beating so fast, my heart wants to leave my body and go hug his extremely perfect deep manly voice. His voice so deep, so beautiful, so full of emotions, so full of perfection is doing things to me, his voice is making me melt. I want to record him singing this part and listen to it all night long until I fall asleep, I suddenly fell in love with this song more and more, I suddenly want to come here everyday and listen to him sing this song.