Baby Mendes//S.M.

Chapter Five -Babe, let me hug you.

Guys, I'm so sorry. You won't accept my apology, but please.....just.....I'm sorry..... -----------------------------------
Mel's POV ---------------------------
Shawn has been acting strange for the past few weeks. He claims it just about work when I ask him, but I'd like to think that it's much more than that. I have been trying to figure it out, but I just haven't yet. I don't know what else to do. Shawn was currently on his phone, and I was sitting on the couch with the girls on my lap.

Shawn was leaving to go back on tour in only two days, and he already had some of his stuff packed. Alice was sitting down next to me with her head on my side, while I fingered through her brown and blonde wavy hair. Andi was sitting in my lap, with her head on my chest and I was using my other hand to finger through her light brown wavy hair. I had just given them lunch and me and Shawn took them to the park, so they have been out of it.

They had to go to Daycare at three so they only had about thirty minutes.

"Shawn?" I ask, and he looks up from his phone.

"Yeah, babe?"

"Could you help me get the girls ready?" I ask and he smiles and nods. "They've got Daycare at three," I add and he sets his phone down on the side table.

He picks up Andi, and I carry Alice upstairs with him. I help get them ready, and Shawn get's their shoes on, which they try to kick off. I laugh as I tell him I'm going to get their snack ready. It was going to take him about five minutes, so I grab his phone from the stand. I open it and go to his contacts. I was going to find out what has been making him this way.

I find his most recent contact which knocked me off balance for a moment.

Camila.

And it a heart and rose emoji next to it, like my name for him. This ticks me off, but I click on the messages. I read through them, scrolling down. They've texted a lot. I read some of them to myself, and I start to get mad now.

Camila: You'll be here in two days!

Shawn: I know, babe, I can't wait!

Babe? What?

Camila: You're sure Mel is fine with this? You know, the I love you, and the nicknames?

Shawn: Yes, I'm sure. It's almost like she doesn't know.

Except I don't know. But I do now.

Camila: I can't wait to finally hug you! It's been forever.

Shawn: I can't wait to either. Every time I think of you, I smile.

Now I'm pissed.

Camila: Have I ever told you how good you always look?

Shawn: Yes, many times.

Who does this girl think she is?

Camila: I wish I could kiss you again.

Shawn: I wish I could too. In two days.

Now, I was crying. Tears were streaming from my face, and I was sniffling. I locked his phone and put it back on the stand. I walked into the kitchen, getting a snack for the girls, still crying. It was clear I was crying, whether I tried to hide it or not. Tears burned my cheeks, and I could tell my eyes were puffy. I felt wasted. Like I was used. Now I knew for real. Shawn was cheating. He said he wasn't, but in my gut, I knew he wasn't telling the truth.

I hear them walk down the stairs, and the girls run to me.

"Are you okay, mummy?" They whisper, and I nod my head.

I walk with them to the jeep and put them in their car seats. Shawn walks out and I just tell him I would be back. I keep my act together as much as I could, and I drive them to their Daycare. When we get there, their teacher gets them out and takes them inside, while I wave her goodbye. Once I put the car in drive, I start balling. I couldn't hold the tears back.

Everything was breaking down. My relationship. My family possibly. My life.

Me.

Everything was spinning, and I just couldn't stop it. Shawn was cheating on me with the girl he worked with. How much more broken could this get?

As I pull into the driveway, I start hiccuping as I try to slow my crying. Once I fully stop, only a few tears are helplessly falling from my eyes, and my cheeks were hot. My eyes were puffy from this, and there was nothing I could do. I walked into the house and Shawn still on his phone, but he looked up. He saw me, and dropped his phone and ran to me. Once he got to me, he asked me what was wrong.

"I don't know Shawn," I say, and he gives me a sympathetic look.

Fake.

"Are you okay?" He half smiles.

Fake.

"No." I shake my head, and he tries to hug me, but I hold up my hands, stopping him.

"Babe, let me hug you. I know you're sad." He said, trying to hug me again.

Lie.

"I don't want you to hug me. I just want to cry." I blurt, and he stops.

He doesn't try to hug me. He doesn't give any expression. He is motionless. Then his lips curve down.

Fake.

"Baby, you know I love you,"

Lie.

"I would never hurt you,"

Lie.

"I want to make you feel safe,"

No, you don't.

"I want to make you feel better,"

No, you don't.

Without warning, he hugs me, wrapping his arms tightly around my body. I wasn't safe within his touch anymore. But I cried. All I did was cry. He rubbed my back which didn't soothe me. I cried into him, making his shirt wet with my tears. After about five or maybe ten minutes of crying, my crying slowed to a stop, and he pulled away from me.

"Now. Can you tell me why you're upset?" He asks, and I don't want to tell him.

"I can't right now. But I will. Right now I'm just tired." I said, and he nodded his head.

He walked upstairs with me and laid me down on the bed. He laid with me, and I began to feel sleepy. Even though I didn't feel safe with him anymore, he still was able to make me fall asleep.

"I love you, Mel." He said, and I smiled, pretending not being able to hear him.

NO. YOU. DON'T.
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Hey guys. Like I said, I'm sorry. You probably don't accept my apology, but this had to happen.

Please don't stay mad if you are.

Love you guys.

Until next time my little lions -- xoxo

-EM