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Chapter six

-She-
//TRIGGER WARNING:  dysphoria/talking about the unwanted body.\\

Frank sat at the bottom of the shower, knees drawn to his chest
Hot water dripping onto his skin burning it ever so lightly .
He had his phone inside the shower with him
Sat on a ledge that never got hit by the water of course.
He was playing music and quietly singing
He didn't want to move though. He hated looking down. He hated the parts, they weren't his so why did he have them.
Frank felt dark , it wasn't sad but dark.
The water started getting cold.
He pulled up on one of the rails ,
you typically put drying rags on them.
He stood up
and tried his best not to fall
He turned off the water and wrapped a towel around his body .
He made sure his hands where dry and picked up his phone , turning off the music.
He tightly wrapped the towel tightly around his breasts, somewhat flattening them.
He sighed and slowly made his way to the mirror
He sighed and turned away so he wasn't facing the mirror but instead the plain ,boring , beige wall.
He dropped his towel
He still looked at the wall, he never looks down.
He continued staring at the wall as he pulled his boxers up over his feet and onto his hips
He pulled his binder down over his head, this was very tough for him because his body was still sorta wet from showering
Frank moved his shoulders around trying to adjust to the sudden tightness over his chest
He bit his lip ting and turned around
By this time the mirror was unfogged
He looked at his reflection
And ran his bony hands down the sides of his hips.
His hips weren't really all that wide, but still..

Frank closed his eyes and inhaled deeply. He slowly exhaled and opened his eyes

He finished getting dressed
His Favourite black, worn out skinny jeans that had holes on the right knee
He put on his misfits shirt.
He ran a hand through his damp hair
He felt like he was missing something but he shrugged it off
He dried his hair the best he could with the  towel.
He threw the towel in the dirty clothes hamper and unlocked the bathroom door , walking out.

He walked upstairs too his room
And sat on his bed
He saw the note Gerard had slipped to him and thought for a second
He turned on his phone  and looked back at he note a few times while he punched the numbers into his contacts.
He texted gerard.
'Wuss good?'
Gee quickly responded
'Hey is this frank?'
Frank bit his lip and typed
'Yeah, so about the party, is it like an actual party or just us emos?'
Frank waited a bit longer this time for gee to text back
Frank sat his phone down on his bed side table and ran a hand through his almost dry hair
It was four pm.

Almost ten minutes later frank  heard his phone ding
He picked up his phone and unlocked it he read gerards text
'...'
'Well, its a party to us but really its basically us scene queens and another kid who is homeschooled..'

Frank typed back
'K , what time?'

Gerard replied almost immediately
'Well i was hoping it would be around six.'

Frank typed back
'Rad. Ill be there.'
Frank sent it
Gerard replied with a simple 'okay.'

-
Gerard sat his phone down and sighed .
Mikey walked into gees room
And started going through gerards makeup
Gerard raised his eyebrow
"Mikey what are your doing? I told you
to leave my makeup alone."

Mikey rubbed their eyes
"i-i lost mine and i wanna make sure i look pretty.."
Mikey said blushing
Gee giggled
"Mikey, just make sure you dont fucking break my eyeliner like you did last time."

Mikey smiled
"Thanks!" They said picking up gerards eyeliner,black eyeshadow and mascara.
Mikey went to their room and sat on the seat in front of their vanity.
They put on a white translucent-ish powder base then applied some black eye shadow on the outer corners of their eyelids and blending it to the inner corners
It looked sorta like a smokey eye but it wasn't really dark , they made sure to press down lightly with the brush so it wouldn't look 100% black
They put eyeliner on their water line and smudged it
They also made small wings on their eyelids
They smiled and rubbed a small bit of lightly coloured pink lip gloss on their lips

They smiled and stood up
They began to undress
Hey looked in the mirror
At the flat chest and the buldge in their under wear
SHE hated it
It wasn't justthen that mikey realized she was actually a girl, well sorta,she was questioning and went under the term 'nonbinary' for the  longest time, she felt like a wierd mix of nonbinary and a girl..she very recently came across the terms genderflux and demigirl. she felt like they fit her best. and she didnt mind they/them pronouns, just felt..something more when she was adressed as she/her..

She quickly got re-dressed and knocked on gerards door
"Come in.." Gerard groaned
Mikey blushed as she opened Gerard's door
"h-hey gee.. c-can I have some money.."
She asked timidly
Gerard raised his eyebrow
"What for?" He asked looking down at his phone
"W-Well..I need some new clothes.."
Gerard sighed and pulled his wallet out of his pocket
He took out around 17 dollars
And held it out in his hand
Mikey walked in shyly and took the money
"Aye moiks," Gee knew she hated that nick name
She rolled her eyes
"What?"

Gerard looked at her
"Don't go anywhere expensive..."
Mikey nodded and went too put on a hoodie before leaving the house