The monster inside of me.

Chapter 2: Why?

As I hear the principal say that my stomach churns. I happen to look out the window and see her car. I exhale before looking at the principal and asking

"May I go to the restroom?"

I stumble to get up before walking out. Turning a corner, I see mother in her dark purple silk dress and white heels. Her twenty karot gold bracelet with her diamond rock ring. I quickly turn my back to her and speed walk to the bathroom. Thoughts ran through my head as I was thinking "should I stay or go?" As I try my best to calm myself in the bathroom, I start to run the positives and negative until..I look in the mirror and see myself. The stitching on my face.  A boy with a black eye and busted lip.

"Is this the life, I was meant to live? Continuous abuse from my parents?"

I shook my head in denial before walking towards the exit.  My heart races and I feel as if I am about to have a asthma attack. As I push the double doors open, I feel the air rushing against my face. I exhale and look at the parking lot before walking on the sidewalk. The cold air walks onto my arms as goosebumps appear. I look at the grey scattered clouds before starting to walk over to the parking lot. Ignoring my own consciousness telling me to turn back, I continued to walk towards the street.

1:45pm

I look back at the school before continuing to walk. Afraid but soon that fear washed off me as my worries disappeared.  As other cars drove past me, I got stares from the drivers. I regained my focus and realized I was in a unfamiliar neighborhood. I kept walking until a van approached. A lady. Most likely a soccer mom rolled her window down as she asked

"Hey. Are you lost?"

I was hesitant until I quickly said

"No. I am about to go to my house."

She smiles before saying

"Okay. Just wanted to check up on you. Because you look lost."

I nodded with a smile before she drove on. I continued to explore the neighborhood until I found a two way street. I watch for traffic before crossing the road.

2:20pm

Finally realizing that the school would write me off as missing. I kept walking. A horn honks at me before a SUV stops a few feet in front of me. A guy in beige pants opens the door before asking

"Hey you lost?"

He kneels before walking back into his SUV. As I turn around, I feel a pain in my neck before I feel light as a feather. I could feel his arms sweeping me from the ground. The world spiinning around me like a top spin.

3:01pm

I awake to see myself sitting in between two guys. My eyes blinded until I sneeze from the Red Polo cologne one of them were wearing. I start to panic and scream before one of the passengers places his hand over mouth and muffling the noices. He wore a leather jacket with faded blue jeans and sneakers. The other gut left of me held my head back as he grabs a syringe. As my blindfold is removed, I look and I see the syringe kit in one of their hands until one of them stabs me in the thigh. Hurting for only a second until I hear one of  them say

"Is the kid alright?"

"Yeah. He is just going night night."

"Yeah night night."

Their voices be disoriented until I was loopy. It played like lop. The pain of the needle entering my thigh stopped and I began to feel light-headed once again.

Some time later

I woke to the feeling of me moving. Wherever I was, it shook alot. I try my best to move, but cannot. Suddenly I hear a voice that goes from high pitch to low pitch. Still disoriented from the effects of me being drugged, I heard somebody say

"Yes. We landed finally. I been stuck on this plane- hey the kid is awake."

A guy with his hands behind his back says

"Leave him be but make sure to give him another dose."

As they pick up my body, I see glimpses of trees and behind me is a plane. I try to narrow my focus but I felt the prickling of my skin being invaded by another dose. My vision blurs as if I was high before ringing blew in my ears and I had...been forced into unconscionous.

Some time later
I awoke in a strange place.  My eyes hurting from the light directly in my eyes.  The walls around me were dirty and dusty riddled with old cement. A tiny window let the night sky flourish in. Before I knew it, I was dragged and pushed on the cold dirty white tile floor. A man in white t-shirt and grey sweatpants comes in and strokes my cheek.  He slaps me before pinning me against the ground. I whimper before asking.

"Why are you doing this?"

He smiles and laughs before rubbing my cheek with his big rough hand and rubs my back.

"STOP!" I scream before he turns me around and slaps me again and says

"Don't you tell me what to do you little shit!" He says before turning me back on my stomach and taking my shirt off.

I felt violated. Like I had bee cracked open to early like a unready fruit. He slides his hand in my trousers before squeezing my butt. I grab his arm before he slaps me again across my cheek. Getting up, he walked out of the room. I got up before seeing the dirty blood stained matress and walking up towards it. I felt the sleepiness overcome me before my eyes closed forcefully.

Middle of the night

I woke up to arms pinning me down and chuckling. As I see a group of men laughing. One in particular walks up to me and rips my trousers off. He takes his pants off before laying on top of me. Something thick  and..long went inside of me as pain wept in my butt. My eyes watered as he thrusted into me. I feel his hot breathes lay unpon me as the night air blew upon me. He stopped before the men left my cell and he left as well. I whimper as the pain shot from my anus before I could curl up in a ball. He did that to me countless times before I...was no longer able to take him.