Rowan Whitethorn x reader

Chapter 5

This short sorry I just really wanted to post this I promise that the next one will be longer, and listened to the song burn at the same time, here's the link, I haven't had the chance to listen to it so I hope it's the right one. Lots of Love  

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WsgYPSfRvuU 

"Your what?" Natasha asks

"My girlfriend" He says once more, hesitating slightly 

I am motionless, no sadness no rage, just a void of where my emotions should be, I fall into a sort of calm and walk away. 

In the distance I hear Maeve giggling and Nat calling for me. I block out any noises as I walk into class, I sit in the back. Away from all the madness. 

Nat comes over and sits next to me. She's the only person that has seen my like this and it was when my Grandfather died, she knew there was nothing she could do.

Time skippity skip:

We were practicing Eliza's song Burn, very ironic. 

As I sang the words they were like acid on my tong, only the acid wasn't meant to burn me;

"I saved every letter you wrote me" I had I kept every thing he ever gave me

"From the moment I read them

I knew you were mine

You said you were mine

I thought you were mine" I really did 

"Do you know what Angelica said"

"When we saw your first letter arrive?

She said"

"Be careful with that one, love

He will do what it takes to survive."

"You and your words flooded my senses" all of me fell for him

"Your sentences left me defenceless" they had and I was not ready for the truth

"You built me palaces out of paragraphs

You built cathedrals

I'm re-reading the letters you wrote me

I'm searching and scanning for answers

In every line

For some kind of sign

And when you were mine"  he never was

"The world seemed to

Burn

Burn" It did, all of it, every single part of it

"You published the letters she wrote you

You told the whole world how you brought

This girl into our bed

In clearing your name, you have ruined our lives"

"Do you know what Angelica said

When she read what you'd done?

She said

"You have married an Icarus

He has flown too close to the sun."

You and your words, obsessed with your legacy...

Your sentences border on senseless

And you are paranoid in every paragraph

How they perceive you"

"You, you, you..." you you burned my heart 

"I'm erasing myself from the narrative

Let future historians wonder how Eliza

"Reacted when you broke her heart" when you shattered it

You have torn it all apart

I am watching it"

"Burn" as I sing the chorus, I spit more acid hoping it really does burn him

"Watching it burn

The world has no right to my heart

The world has no place in our bed

They don't get to know what I said"

"I'm burning the memories" I do, they were nothing just a waste

"Burning the letters that might have redeemed you

You forfeit all rights to my heart

You forfeit the place in our bed

You sleep in your office instead

With only the memories

Of when you were mine"

"I hope that you burn" I sang it and meant every word, I really did want him to burn.