Mute Marais || Survivor

1. bullied

Lauren's POV

Thunder crashed above the primary school I was at it was currently lunch time and yes I still spoke if anyone was wondering not that anyone cared about me enough to be bothered about the way i acted. Suddenly, I was shoved to the ground, my dinner tray clattering to the ground -my food was spread across the floor and the boy stood on my orange juice carton and it soon was squashed under the force of his foot squirting in every direction as it exploded I tried to get up but he just hit me with his foot and kept kicking every inch of my body with others watching, some were laughing (well most were) as I said before no one cares about me I'm just the girl with the brother who likes to sing I never tell him about what happens at school usually I come home from school with bruises but he never notices, he's just obsessed with his stupid music.

My eyes pricked with tears as everyone  kicked me harder there was only one boy who stood out from the rest who actually looked like he cared his blue eyes were like diamonds his brown hair standing -he was shy he tried to never get noticed by the bullies for fear of what would happen I didn't know him, well neither did I know his name I only knew of his appearance I didn't want him to see anything else that would happen to me that dreadful lunch so I mouthed 'go please'. I was begging him, no one needed to see this I wish I didn't have to have this done to me but it was normal.

The thunder storm was getting worse and the boy kicking me had noticed so he walked away cackling at me joking around with his idiotic friends, everyone did what he wanted he ruled over them like some sort of god (with fewer braincells) but he hated me, he absolutely despised me, one day he was surely going to beat me so much I wouldn't be able to move anymore I don't know why I didn't just give up already, blood streamed down my arms being washed away by the rain floods of tears came running out of me.

"A-are you o-okay?" a small and quiet voice had whispered I shook my head a tiny amount only enough so he could see it "I'm sorry I wish I could've help ed you I just I can't do it I'm not brave enough".

"Don't w-worry im u-used t-to it" I replied to the shy boy anyone could get lost in his eyes they were so captivating, "I'm sorry about what they do to you no one needs to go through that, how are you?".

I'm hurt, im broken, I feel useless, I feel like I mean nothing to anyone, I'm depressed, I'm down, im not alright, "I'm fine" I forced a quick smile as I looked at him again then looked up towards the sky, clouds had completely covered it small flashes shot across the clouds sounding huge BANGS as the rain came down heavier, my hair was soaked and it covered my eyes hiding anything I'd normally be able to see.

"What do you think you could do to make them stop this?" the boy was still there it surprised me but I was focused on the answer of the question I had been thinking about doing this since months ago but i had never fully carried it out.

"Not giving them a response, not giving anyone a response, goodbye" I replied back, turning around on the cold pavement of the school, luckily I only had a month left before I left this cruel place the shock came across his eyes as he realised what I had just said, the boy soon realised that my words may be the last he heard of me.

"No you don't need to do that I thought you said you would keep fighting and not give up not give in!" he raised his voice snapping his head away from me standing up.

"Says the shy boy in the corner who never wants to get noticed!" he flicked his head back to me glaring at me he was red.

"AT LEAST I DON'T GET BEATEN UP!".

"Next time this happens to you don't expect me to be waiting for you to give you a shoulder to cry on go to your brother next time oh wait I forgot even he's forgotten about your existence" this was getting seriously nasty, I thought he was one of the okay ones.

"How about you go and just not exist!" he screamed, I bit my lip as I lost the feeling in my legs collapsing to the ground, a puddle was gathering around me, my tears mixing with the rain as the difference between the two blurred, my clothes were soaked and I didn't feel like going to lessons anymore the only other thing making this worse was,

I thought he was different from the others

I guess I was wrong

As usual.

Hey guys I guess this is kinda depressing for the start of it but I just got into the mood for writing a sad story right now I'm ill and thats probably messing with my mood I might update again today if I don't sorry but I hope you enjoy

back to go through this and make it actually readable somehow :]