Thinking of You [ON HOLD]

Chapter Two

As I stepped out of the grand apartment building, I couldn't help but feel sorry for Louis. What if he really was just having a bad day? And I had just stood there having a go at him.

The first thing I see is an annoyed Liam and an upset Louis who seemed to be avoiding my stare.

What have I done? I'm making one of my friends hate me.

I seriously needed to apologise for what happened back in the apartment.

He must think I'm a total bitch!

"Hey El. You gonna get in the car or you just gonna stand in the car park all day?" Liam's voice pulled me our of my thoughts and right back into reality. I then realised I had come to a complete halt on the pavement.

Louis finally glanced my way and I noticed him slightly cringe as saw I had joined them.

"Oh. Right. Yeah, coming" I managed to choke out.

I crossed the car park and slid into the backseat of the car. Liam proceeded to climb into the drivers seat as Louis went round to the passengers seat.

The journey was short, and for that I was thankful. I hadn't had much time to think about Louis and what I was going to do about the situation.

As Liam parked the car I could see a few girls hovering by the entrance to the shopping centre. Hopefully they wouldn't see us as we went in.

Liam walked round to my door and proceeded to open it like chauffeur.

"M'lady" I giggled at the little role play that we had going on.

"Why thank you Sir"

Out of the corner of my eye I could see Louis looking deep in thought.

I really did feel sorry for him. I was totally out of order.

"Shall we go then guys?" We both nodded in reply and made our way into the shopping centre. Luckily the girls had gone inside so no one saw or recognised the boys.

"Guys. I need a wee. You two alright to go ahead and I'll meet you in the food court?" I nervously turned to Louis to see his reaction to the awkward moment ahead.

"Sure. See you in a bit." Shocked I kinda had to do a double take.

Before I could protest Liam had already walked off leaving Louis and I alone.

We walked in silence to the food court and grabbed the nearest table.

"Listen Lou. I'm really sorry about what happened earlier. I didn't mean to be harsh or anything. I really hope you can forgive me for being an rude and I hate that you're ignoring me. It kinda hurts cos I feel like I'm losing one of my friends." I rambled on as Louis looked on in shock at my outburst.

"I'm fine El. I forgive you." He replied, short and snappy.

"No seriously Lou I am truly sorry."

"I told you I'm fine." Louis was getting quite angry. I could tell.

"I'm a woman Louis. Fine doesn't mean fine. Trust me. I've said it enough."

"Just leave it Elise. I'm not in the mood." He rolled his eyes.

"I just wanna talk. Find out why you're being like this. I don't like it when you're upset." I try and reason with him.

"You wanna help?! Huh?" He cried, raising his voice.

"Yes. That's all."

"You can't. Simple as that. So stop trying!"

"Why can't I help you Louis?" I was kinda worried about him. This wasn't like Louis at all. He was usually alright with sharing how he was feeling with me. Sometime I felt like some kind of therapist.

"B-because... My mum...Sh-she's... Dead." That last word hit my like a bullet in my chest.

Dead.

She can't be.

I really am a terrible human being.

Josh was right...

No! this isn't the time for self pity. This is the time to be there for my friend.

"Oh my god Louis. I'm so sorry. Is there anything I can do for you?"

"There is one thing..." He hesitated.

"Anything."

"Don't say anything to anyone else especially the boys. They don't know and I don't want them to. It would just make things worse." He really sounded traumatised just telling me.

"O-okay. I-" I began but I was interrupted.

" hey guys, you alright?" Liam innocently asked, unknowing of the situation.

No Liam we're not alright.

Louis' mum died.

But I couldn't explain that to him. I had to keep had to keep my promise to Louis.

So instead I simply nodded and turned to face the other direction.

Liam looked confused and slightly hurt.

Would I seriously be prepared to risk losing one friend for another?

I guess I'd have to.