How Could A Heart Like Yours Love A Heart Like Mine

Stay away form me

Days past but Thomas didn't show up. All I wanted was him to hold me in his arms. I moved the children's beds into my room, it felt safer. My house was surrounded by the Peaky Blinders but they can't help me. They failed to stop them the first time, I'm sure they will fail a second time. Arthur told me John had shot one of the men. They took him somewhere for 'questioning'. It was late at night but all I could think about was Thomas. Where are you?

Thomas POV

*smash*

"WHERE IS HE?" I screamed. My voice was weak from all the shouting and my hands were bleeding. 2 days had past since the incident but I still felt the adrenaline trough my body. This was all my fault.

"Tommy stop, you'll kill him!" John shouted.

When I looked up at the man didn't move. "Fuck" I whispered. Arthur started shaking his body but he didn't wake up.

"Nice job Tommy, you fucking killed him" Arthur said angry.

"He deserved it" I growled.

"yeah well, now we'll never fucking know where the bastard is hiding." Arthur said while he threw a chair across the room.

"How is she?" I asked quitley.

"She misses you Tommy, I honestly can not believe you haven't visited them. They're your kids for gods sake." Arthur yelled.

"If Lizzy finds out she's in even more danger." I sighed.

"You have two beautiful children Tommy and you don't even visit them. I thought family was the most important thing for you?" Arthur asked. I started to get angry.

"Lizzy is a Shelby too, IF YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!" I shouted.

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GRACE POV

"shhh, don't cry baby girl." Darcy had been crying the whole evening but I couldn't calm her down.

"What's wrong with you love? You miss daddy?" I asked her eventough I knew she couldn't awnser, I felt like a fool but I loved it. Her big blue eyes were know looking at me.

"I miss him too.." I kissed her forehead and I walked with her around the house. Charlie was sleeping in the living room.

I heard a knock on the door. My heart stopped for a second but I gathered all my courage and I walked over to the door. A murderer wouldn't just bang on the door. Would he? When I opened the door I sighed in relief. I was so happy to see Polly. I hugged her while I was holding Darcy in my arms. It was a warm embrace.

"I'm so happy to see you guys." Polly said.

"Oh Polly, Come in." I lead her to the kitchen. I quickly put Darcy in bed with her brother. I started making some tea.

"Are you okay ?" she asked. I put my hands on the sink and I let my head fall. I sighed.

"I am.. I am not okay Polly." I turned around so I could see her. "I'm so far from being okay. I live in fear everyday. My babies are in danger. I can't sleep at night, I'm always scared. And I miss him. Everyday. I just.. I can't believe he left us to rot. I can't stop thinking about him Polly" I cried.

"Oh no no please, don't cry love." She runs over and hugs me.

"How can he do this to me?" I asked while I looked in her eyes. I tried to find any emotions in her eyes but there was nothing to find. She didn't even feel sorry for me.

"Please just leave, you're only making it worse." I pushed her away from me. "Tell your family to stay away from my children and me." I said mad. I tried not to shout because Charlie was sleeping.

"Don't do this Grace. You can't push us away! You're in danger, you NEED us." Polly tried to change my mind but I was so sick of the Shelby's.

"LEAVE. And take ALL of the gang members with you. I will kill them if I see them standing outside of my house. Tell your brothers to NEVER visit me again." With that Charlie started crying. I rushed over to him. "LEAVE!" was what I shouted before picking him up form his little bed.

I heard the door close. Charlie cried even more now but I felt relieved.