It's monday and the first time I see my friends since they know, and it isn't at all as I expected. I thought everything would feel really awkward but it didn't in fact... I really felt really confortable talking to them about it. We laughed a lot and I really felt free like I could fly.
In the afternoon I had to stay in the school library because the coordinator asked me to do a strange project for him like he always does so I put my headphones on and started working. But in one moment I looked to the people in the table next to me and I kept staring at one of the German exchange students. Oh damn... he was like an angel... His blond perfect and thin hair, his perfect blue eyes, his cute nose... I just felt like going there and kissing him.
I saw him turning his head to me and I just looked fast at my computer, nervious. I tried to put the most non-stupid face I could avoiding to look at him because I knew I wouldn't be able to stop. The only thing I know is that he kept starring at me for a while, but I didn't check it. I was really nervious and my heart beated really fast.
When I left the library I saw him talking to his friend, who kept staring at me.
When I saw scout the next day I told her about him and just in that moment he passed next to us lookng at me and my heart started going really fast. She stared at him and just said "Damn why are all the hot guys gay!?" I asked her why she thought that and she just took my hand and took me to the football pitch, where he was playing with his friends. We started talking across, then back, then again and then we just sat in the floor next to him.
-To start look at his extra skinny trousers. They are like REALLY gay. - In fact she was right. - And the way he walks, and look how he hits the ball. All the boys hit it really hard with anger. When he hits it he does it nicely, softly and really elegantly.- I remained silent. Everything she said was right. She really should be a psycologist, and I tell her all the time, but she doesn't listen to me. She hates normal jobs. Scout is one of the mosy orinal people I've ever met. She hates people telling her what to do, so her dream is to go to New York and study arts at Parsons university. She will have her own art gallery and will travel all arround the world. She doesn't care about what her parents want for her; She just follows her dream. I wish I was as brave and just leave and study cinema somewhere far away.
Melissa who was next to us agreed after a while. We where all sad there saying nothing; Just observing. Looking for more clues. After a really long time Melissa said that he was feeling unconfortable next to us. He looked at us and when we looked back he would just turn his head and put his hair and swetter correctly. Unfortunately I didn't see it because I was doing exactly the same.
After that I spent the whole day thinking about him. Is it possible to fall inlove with someone I hadn't eaven talk to? I didn't know what was it but I liked it and hated it at the same time. During every class I kept looking at the door hoping that he passed through and looked at me, or smiled. I couldn't stop smiling. I visualized in my head him coming and kissing me. I didn't care if there was my whole class in front.
The feeling was so strong that I eaven believed it would happen. I was just waiting for the moment when he would come and do it. It was an obsession. There where some times when I thought it was stupid. He was like an angel. So perfect. Why would such a perfect person eaven notice someone like me?! But then either Scout, Melissa or both would come and told me to stop being so pesimistic. That they where always right. And I believed them! Not because I agreed, just because I wanted them to be right.
So I spent a lot of time thinking about him, and the feeling was increasing all the time. It was unstopable. It was too late.
