Black soul,Blood tears,Dark lover

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I washed my face with water,to calm down my crying,and tried my best to clean off my stained up blouse,with my mascara smudged all over it.I just give up,there's no point in trying to take it off. People will start asking me why I was crying anyways,I mean...like the whole and I mean literally the ENTIRE school saw me crying,after I was done being imformed about Alexander's death,by a cop.I just don't get it....I mean people,like almost everyone I know say that they want to have my life,cause their's suck.will trust me! Instead of you wishing you had mine,I mostly wish that I had yours.I grabbed my things,which really the only thing I had on me right now was my phone,and walked out of the girls bathroom,not looking anywhere but the ground I bumped into someone,and fell on my bum.like the clumsy,hopeless,little girl I am.I groan in pain ,cause my butt hurts,damn this floor is hard.I look up at the idiot who made me fall,well..really it was my fault for not looking!GUILTY AS CHARGED!!Not only did I bump into a person,but it was guy,and its not just any random guy,that guy is my boyfriend.huh? he must've went searching for me after he saw me and my little 'incident'. He stretched out his hand for me to take,which I firmly did,not wanting to fall down on my butt again.

      "Im so sorry babe,uh..umm...what happened?why were you crying?c'mon just tell me...please,i wanna know what's going on with my baby girl."he looked at me with full concern in his eyes,filled along with pain and curiosity. I sighed of course I gave in,I mean this guy,he is handsome as fuck(sowwy if you dont like the  language o(.´°')o )not only that,he's loving,caring,and compassionate,so of course I couldn't reject him without saying yes.

          "ive just been...*sigh*...zane it's just that,ive just been informed by a cop that my brother alex,was found dead,and ....murdered....I don-" I was then being hugged tightly,but at the same time gently by zane.He rubbed my back with his palm,in circles,as if trying to comfort me.

   "shhh...shhh...shhh.....im so sorry baby....I truly am,but you haven't lost everything,remember you still got your knight in shining armor here to protect you,my princess.I know how it feels like to lose someone very important to you....just know that I'll always love you,and ill always be here for you wether you need me or not.I wont ever leave your side,my love."

Tears started forming in my eyes,but me being the strong-willed girl I am I held them back in,and just hugged him back.we stayed like that for awhile,when suddenly I was pushed back with him giving me a small peck on my lips soon before he started smiling at me.

"here ,imma give you my jacket,I don't want my sweet angel,to be showing off her blouse with mascara smudged all over it,now do we?People will start talking more,and then next thing you know,you'll have a giant mob of students all around you ,asking you what's wrong?what's going on?and so, on,so,on.you know what I mean?"I gave him a smile while nodding my head ,god I love this guy. he took off his jacket wrapping it around me,but soon pulling me into him,by the jacket,and kissed me on the lips,but to soon be interuppted by the dismissal bell.Yay!school done...now to go home to my 'sweet big,loving, daddy'(note the sarcasm).He pulled away,once millions of kids started pouring out of the doors,with loud laughter immediately starting to echo through the hallwsys,along with different chatter going on between students,and teachers.I walked outside searching for my 5 bestfriends.which was zoe,Jasmine,caleb,Mark,and Karla. I turned my head around to see them all talking to each other,I was about to head over there,when instead I started hearing their conversation.

    "guys,I mean c'mon did you like see her crying,I mean I know that she's been crying about shit going around in her life,but I think she's just doing it to get attention.."

      "I agree with zoe guys,I mean yea she sure is hot and all,but like for real!What the school mostly talks about 24/7 is clarine this?clarine that?omg did you see clarine crying?I feel so bad for clarine.like shit ,like shut the fuck up clarine."

   "well mark its also cuz shes dating the football's team captain,and well he's a hottie so of course she's gonna get all the attention,not to mention that one day I got him drunk at last week's party,and had sex with me in the bathroom."They all laughed,while mark and caleb started doing moaning noises just to tease Jasmine.Thats it..I thought they were my friends,but I guess they just all pretended to be.Mark the guy that always made goofy comments,caleb the best guy,that could make me laugh,Jasmine my long childhood friend,Zoe the nicest and sweetest girl I ever met,and finally Karla,the girl that was always there for me.....All of the people I care about are slipping away,and I was blinded this entire time.none of them were truly my friends,but what hurt me more is Zane.the guy I loved,and the guy that was tricked by getting drunk and having sex with Jasmine.I know that he would never do that,if it was up to him. wait...would he?I just don't know what to believe in,anymore.I wish that I lived in a whole different world,and time.where I can get away from all of this crazy drama.Speaking of time I better go,I dont want to miss my episode of black butler.haha yeah its like the only thing that brings me out of the real world,more like the cruel world that Im living in.But anyways not only did my day get worse by the minute ,but ....I have a loving guy,who had sex with one of my girlfriend's,and a bunch of kids that I thought I knew,and loved,were just a bunch of fake friends.couldnt my life get any worse.well......Probably.