Black soul,Blood tears,Dark lover

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Wearing my normal attire,skinny jeans,white blouse,and black sandles,I made my way down the school's hallway. Tears fell down my cheeks,today was the day that my big brother,was announced dead,he was found murdered.They said that they found him headless while being eaten by insects and such,with nothing on but just his boxers. I just dont understand why someone would want to hurt my big,lovable brother,Alexander. He was always there for me,when either of our parents were up-high drunk,and were always beating Alex,me,and our youngest sister,who was only 12. Me being 17 and Alex being at age 20. He could've gone to collage,he could've had a bright future,but instead he stayed there for us. Showing us how much he loved,and cared for us. I can still hear his beautiful laugh,his dazzling smile,that would make any girl go up high heels over him. I smiled at the thought when I used to be scared of the thunder. He would used to let me go into his bedroom and sleep with him,and sometimes he would tell me that The gods were going unbalenced,and are almost going into war and that he believed that I could be the chosen one to put everything in its rightful place. I smiled once more,but it turned upside down. Some things were in the rightful place,and now some things are taken away from me,including Alex. he was the big,goofy,lovable brother that any sister would be happy to have. But now he doesn't exist in our world. He now walks upon the golden gates,resting in peace,with no regrets,and no more pain. I would like that,no pain,no regrets....but I still have to live on...I made a promise to him,a promise that I intend to keep.

                °|ðFlashbackð|°

"Clarine can you please keep a promise for me?"

  "of course big brother!"I took a seat next to my brother while he held me in his arms,after he just gotten a beating from our daddy.

"Even though you're 11 I still want you to keep this promise..to never let it go,until your time on earth is finished,and you fly up into the purest kingdom,can you do that little sister?"

  I looked deep into his blue eyes ,finding pain,but happiness at the same time.

   "Anything for you big brother,what is it?tell me!"

  "If I ....no longer exist-"

  "what!?no dont say that! you-"

"shhhh....please let me finish.....if I no longer exist in this world,promise me that you will live on...live on for me,for our baby sister,for everyone ,even the people that cause you pain.....I want you to be strong,to be happy,to at least find someone who will always be there for you,to love,and care for you. to worry over you,to heal your broken wounds from inside.....I want you to have a future..dont try to end it yourself....live on...and be happy with someone you love....can you promise me that Clarine?"

     Tears were slipping out of my dark brown eyes ,and slidding down my rosy cheeks. I hugged him tight,with him soon returning the gesture.

   "I promise big brother,I'll be strong,ill find love,have a future,and make you proud....I love you alex."

   "I love you too....."

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    I walked into the girls bathroom while looking at myself in the mirror.Tears dripping out,eyes red and puffy,cheeks red,my shoulder length brown-curly hair all messy,and my blouse stained with mascara,from all the crying. I will live on,I will make my brother proud,Ill have a future,and ill find true love,Ill be strong no matter what....after all this is whats in my life everyday.....pain......but this is just too much......but anyways why cry since today was just......Another normal day.......