The Secret He Doesn't Need To Know

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After we got done playing Who's Your Daddy. I decided to let Mark rest. Hell he had jet lag, and he told me that he would be fine. But trust me, he wasn't.

I let him sleep in my bed, like I told him to do. We were arguing for a good while on depending if Mark should sleep in my bed. I won eventually.

While Mark was sleeping, I figured to go out and.. Just explore around my town land. Sure nothing probably have changed.. But still, I need to get out of the house.

I decided to dye my hair. It's been a really, REALLY dull green. And honestly.. It looks disturbing.

I've decided to just go to my
 salon and dye it there. I really don't want to go through the trouble and dye it myself like last time.. I also decided to dye it dark green. Don't get me wrong, I love the light green in my hair, it matches Sam. But I been thinking of changing it. I know my fans hate changes... Buuut they'll like this.. And besides.. They were so fucking happy when I posted Oh... Sir! yesterday.. I went through the comments of course. And there was a lot of positive comments in there. Hell even Felix commented!

I missed doing YouTube those two and a half months.. I miss Abby more.. I shook my head. People probably thinking something is wrong with me. I need to stop thinking of Abby.

I want to date Mark. I love him after all.. He was the first one I ever loved in a while.. And I know he won't love me.. I'm just a friend towards him.. I'll be nothing more than just a friend..

I stopped thinking of Mark and Abby combined, when I walked into my salon.. Welp.. Time to get Sarah to do my hair.

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I woke up.. In Jack's bed.. With Jack not there.. The only way I got to sleep was because Jack was sleeping right next to me.

I rose up in Sean's bed, with sliding my feet onto the floor.

"Ow!"

My head started to hurt.. I put my hands on the side of my head. And then... I started to remember... All of that memory.. Is coming back.. The only memory that I want to forget about..

I was driving.. Driving down the road in my blue mustang. Drunk off my ass. There was a man on the other side of the lady with them being in the road. I didn't even bother to stop. And when I hit her? I didn't even bother to stop and check on her. I knew who it was. I've always knew who it was.. And when I got to look at the man's face. Sean's.

"An-And I will never.. Ever.. Tell Sean about that.. That night.. That I killed his true love."

Tears started to flow.

"Wh-Why am I such a fuck-up?! I-I killed Abby and I didn't even have the guts to tell Sean! Sean has nobody! And when I tell him.. He would want me to get out of his life.. For good."

I was wiping my tears away as fast as I can. I wouldn't want Jack noticing I was crying. And I don't even know where he's at.. Hopefully he's not downstairs..

"I love you Jack.. I really do. I don't want you to get hurt.. I don't want anything to happen to you.. I loved you since I ever met you.. You and that cute little accent that you have.. Heh.. It always makes me smile when I hear you laugh too. I just love that little laugh you have. And especially when you get excited. Your eyes will widen, and you will start jumping up and down like a-"

              *Creeeeeeek*

"Fu-Fuck!"

"Se-Sean!"

"Heh.. Yeah?"

"Ho-How much did you hear..?"

Jack soon opened his door. Me seeing a dark green haired Irishman.

"Oooooh nothing! Just that you were maybe.. Confessing your love towards me!"

I smirked over to him, walking towards him, quickly picked him up by his waist.

"Ma-Mark! Put me down!"

"Not until you confess your love to me as well!"

"I-I love you too Marky!"

I put him down with looking into his eyes.

"Pinkie promise..?"

I could see a hint of blush on Sean's face.. With him nodding his head up and down.

"I-I really love you.. I want to be with you!

I smiled down at him with biting my bottom lip, while turning my head, looking at a random wall in his room.

"Are.. Are you sure?"

I felt a hand on the side of my face. With making me looking at Sean's face.

"Yeah absolutely Marky."

Sean soon got on his tippy toes.. And quickly pecked my lips.

"I-I.. I love you Mark."

I smiled.. But yet.. I didn't trust him.. I don't think he's over Abby yet. I don't think he's over the love of his life yet. I'm still nothing towards him except just a friend. But yet.. I still smiled.

"I love you too Jacky.. Forever and always."

I heard a little squeal from Jackaboy. With him hugging me with all his might given into his little Irishman body.

"Heh.. C'mon little Jacky.. Wanna watch some Netflix together?"

Jack smirked up towards me while letting me go. 

"Are you implying that we're gonna Netflix and chill?"

I quickly widen my eyes.. I could just feel the heat coming to my cheeks.

"U-Uh.. N-No! I don't even want to think about that right now!"

Sean giggled, with kissing my cheek.

"I know you don't Markibaby.."

I rose an eyebrow.

"Markibaby?"

"Okay! Let's go watch something on Netflix!"

Sean replied with of course ignoring my question. But I just let it slide.. For now that is.

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Me and Sean both decided on a romantic show called Happy Tree Friends. It's a lovely show where friends die over and over in gratuities ways! But on the other side of it! It's cartoonish! So it's okay for kids of the age of ten and up!

"Ma-Mark..?"

Sean was cuddling up against me with tugging my shirt.

"Yeah babes?"

"Ca-Can we maybe watch something else? I can't handle gore like I use to.."

"I-I forgot.. I'm sorry.."

I quickly grabbed the remote and changed it to something he would like.. Home. Me and Sean loves Home. The little alien dude.. Who nobody really likes to hang out with.. Really, if Oh just.. Disappeared one day, nobody would really care. Woah Mark. That's some deep shit. Yeah well.. Y'know.. I try Mark. I smiled at my stupidity with zoning back into reality, watching Home with this cute little smol bean in my arms. I really do love him.. I love Sean.. He's my everything.

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