Forbidden Love

Part One

Theres someone I love...
This person is memorable, gorgeous, kind, fun, different and overall amazing. Its sad that no one knows this person because they brang life back into me. Okay okay, it's true, I don't want anyone to have this person or even lay eyes on them.

But it's so weird. I have this forbidden love that I want to get out so bad but I can't. Why, why do I look at you and think that your the whole world and I, yes, I need you. Not him not her not anyone but me. I can't live with these thoughts of you in my head.

You're always angry at me and hit me when I do something you don't like. You smile wide when I complement you but when I tease you about your rosy cheeks and you would get mad again and hit me.

The way you would act like you hate me but when were in history you stare at me from your seat in the back and whenever I catch you you turn away as fast as possible but it's clear you stare.

I would hit on you by making crummy jokes and wait till science to say them. You would look to me and i would say "Y'like our chemistry" and wink. I think my arm bruised because you hit me so hard

I think how perfect you are in class and when I get into trouble it's all because of you but i don't care! I'd save you whenever you would get into trouble and I would lie for you and even die for you if i had to.

Your the one I love.
Your the one.

But the problem is...

[IS]You're not real.

My hidden love. This is for you. Your smile is brighter than anyone else and I love you. Remember that time you were obsessed with those tiny rubber bands that turned into animal shapes but when I got you the most rare one and you said you didn't care for them anymore?

Silly isn't it? I still remember when I was late to class and when i came in you were crying because I wasn't there and you thought I died or got into a wreck. The second you saw me you were angry and happy at the same time.

Your cheeks were red from your embarrassment and you blamed it on the weather. I still laugh because it was warm outside and it wasn't even winter but I stayed quiet and hugged you as you calmed down.

[IS]I wish you were here.

Remember when I died. Well... I didn't really but I got really depressed. I looked in the mirror and I still remember what I looked like. My skin was pale but my lips were still red, I had a runny nose, and my hair was messed up.

When you saw me you were scared. You didn't leave my house for a month straight. You thought I was going to die and cried for a couple of days. You stayed and fed me when I would eat and sent me to bed when I forgot the time.

[IS]Why are you so caring?

remember the first time I saw you? It was winter and I instantly fell for you. I couldn't even talk to you though. You walked the same way that I did so I tried to get close to you. All I could see was your pink cheeks and your cute little freckles.

We both ended up in every class but two. We would pass notes together in Japanese so no one knew what we said. We both laughed in detention going through the memories of look on our teachers face when he couldn't read the notes.

[IS]Why are you so damn funny?

I hate when you say that you're ugly when your the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my life, you complain about your freckles even though they make you even cuter, and you always yell at me when I put your round classes on you even when I say you look gorgeous.I don't know why you take yourself for granted because you're everything I could have ever wanted.

[IS]Why are you so beautiful?

Your funny and we tell inappropriate jokes all the time, we have inside jokes only we would know, we even have our own handshake!

Your friends tell me you like me and my friend tell you I like to you. I know we will never admit it but here I am right now. I know you're listening and you're probably crying. I know you to well to say that you're not crying on your bed right now.

I know you'll think I'm talking about some other girl and bug me all day about it but it's you. If you still don't believe me then i'll tell you stuff about yourself.

Your favorite ice cream is plain vanilla, you have a secret love for roller coasters, one time you broke your mom's necklace and blamed it on your dad, you rather have sweets than savory foods, and your middle name is so embarrassing you once got into a fight over it and you ranted for over two hours talking to me about it on the phone!

[IS]Why do I fall for you so easily?

We've known each other for over six years and we know mostly everything about each other. I still want to know more about you. I want to care for you when your sick, I want to sleep with you beside me knowing that you're always going to fine.

I know I can't always be there for you in the worst times of your life but you can always call me and rant, cry, or whatever and I'll never theft you, never.

[IS]Why do I drop everything for you?

I never thought I'd cry over a girl... Especially you because I thought, yeah, I thought you wouldn't ever talk to me in the first place.

Look where we are now. Its beautiful isn't it. Please, let's stay like this.

I want to live life making you happy. Even if you don't like me more than a friend, I like you and I will never just give up on you like that. Your my bestfriend and we will always stay together.

Please... Promise me, that we will always stay together...

[S]Because
[S]I
[S]Truly
[IS]Love
[S]You