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Every morning I woke up alone.
Yet i forced myself to smile.
It's okay for me. I used to it.

I heard they screaming my name.
All this fame makes me have a lot of fans.
A lot of friends. But the fake one.
I know from the start they didn't really befriend me.

Do i need to continue this life?
Living a life that i didn't like?
With all this fake?
All lies?

Lalisa Manoban
I read that name very huge on ad screen
Is that really me?
Or a girl with a fake smile that try to please everyone even if she's sick as fuck?
Or a money maker for her agency?

Did everyone truly love me?
Even my parents hates me that much.
They ditch me a day after i just came to this world.
An angel saved me. At least i thought she's an angel before.
I love her.
I treated her as my own mom.
Even though she's not rich, i'm still happy being his daughter.

Until that day came.
She fell in love with someone. Someone rich.
He doesn't like me.
But she wants a better life. For her.
I'm just a burden to her.
And once again. I've got ditched.

She left me at the train station.
I search for her. But she no longer in my sight.
I convincing myself that she must be worried and searching for me.
Since that day i promise to myself, to make me very famous. So it'll be easier to her to search for me. But i guess i'm wrong.

I once met her. When i finally became a "celebrity"
She's walking side by side with a little girl and her husband.
I thought that was the best day of my life.
I ran to her and hugged her.

"Who are you. I don't know you"
That words slipped from her mouth.
It's like a thousand knife stabbed my heart.
I finally realized. She never love me. Never.

It's funny how i thought i lost in train station is an accident.
She ditched me. Purposely.

People say they envy me. They want to be me.
Me. Lalisa Manoban. Loved by everyone
If only they know.
How hurt it is to be me. Lalisa Manoban.
At least that name they called me.
I don't even know my real name.
My real self.

Am i the one who flashed sugar smile to everyone everyday?
Or
Am i the most lonely girl in this entire world?
I don't even know.

I love my boyfriend. I mean my ex boyfriend. Hanbin
I love him so much.
He promised to makes me happy everyday.
He promised to love me till the day he die.
It's hard for me to trust anyone. But he made me sure that his love is sincere.
I let him enter my life.

He gain my trust.
Until i saw him kissing with my BEST FRIEND. Hanbin kissing with jennie.
Jennie who i thought a great sister for me.
They didn't even apologise to me.

"I never love you, how can i love someone who doesn't even know her parents"
Finally he told me the very truth.
Finally i know now. No one love me.
It's all fake.

I've got enough of this shit.

Okay. I get it.
No one wants me.
Even i am ashamed for being myself.
Let's get over this bullshit drama.

I feel the blood rushed and the water in my bathup turned red.
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I feel so dizzy.
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But this is the best feeling.
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Finally i'm free..
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Goodbye Lalisa Manoban
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"BREAKING NEWS"

"The manager of Lalisa Manoban found Lalisa's dead body in her apartment. She said that Lalisa comitted suicide by slicing her own wrist in her bathub.
Lalisa's agency has confirmed this news.
Her funeral will be held this afternoon.
A lot of artist shocked hearing this news. Include Hanbin who recently dated her.
Lalisa's agency said they found a song lyric titled "Alone" in her apartment desk. And confirmed that her besfriend jennie kim will sing that song for tribute to Lalisa. Rest In peace Lalisa"

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"The saddest part is, no one know the truth. They believed in lies."





















Author note:
This is my first strory. I'm so sorry to make it this sad. And i'm sorry to make jennie as bad character. And i'm sorry for thr cursing words. It may didn't suitable for some readers.

greet from me! Hope you like it.

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