Everything is black and white
Everything is faded
I want to open up but my mind and heart are gated
These scars on my wrist still bleed though they are faded
I'm stuck in this black abyss that my mind created
I'm stuck in this cage locked inside my mind
I'm watching the turning and twisting vines
I'm watching the hour glass run out of time
It's my life yet I have a back row seat
My heart is broken yet it still beats
I'm bound in chains
Pulling and struggling has been in vein
I cannot break them
I cannot shake them
So I wait for someone to set me free
I let everyone else show me how to be
Pretty soon I forget who I am
I just let the hourglass run out of sand
Just like I let the blood drip down my hand
Is any of this meant to be
Or is it all unplanned
I don't have my heart
I gave it away at the start
Now I have to survive without it
I have to live without my heart
Even though it's tearing me apart
Will I ever be whole again?
Will I ever be fixed?
Or is this how I'm always going to have to live
Is this all that I have to give
Is this how I have to live
It's all so numb
It's all undone
Why can't I be okay
Why can't I be perfect
Why can't just one goddamn person tell me that I'm worth it
I'm broken
I'm dying
And you can't save me
