This chapter contains suicidal content. Read at your own risk. *it's not very descriptive but i'll warn you before it starts for those who don't wanna read it*
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"I'm gonna go get some food, okay? Can i trust you to stay here and not run off to, i dont know..." he trails off. "Colorado?" he asks sarcastically.
"Obviously" i gave him a bored look.
"Alright, i'll be right back, you should get washed up" He said grabbing his car keys and walking over to the door.
"Oh, and lia.." he stops as he was about to leave
"Yeah?" i look up at him
"Um..." he hesitated "um im gonna get you clothes too" He scratched the back of his neck, not making eye contact.
I gave him a questioning look but didn't press it.
"Okay.." he said as he shut the door, leaving me with my thoughts.
I went to fill the bathtub. I walked out of the bathroom, back into the bedroom, where a ceiling to floor window was placed.
I looked out into the city, seeing mason pull out of the hotel parking, into the city. Blending with all these other people. I'm so oblivious to these people. Maybe their just like me. I wonder how much fucked up shit is going on in mason's head.
I walk back into the bathroom and the water is filled to the brim of the tub.
I turn off the faucet amd slip into the warm water, hugging my knees to my chest. Soaking the clothes mason, kindly gave to me.
*TRIGGER WARNING*
Why do I keep fucking everything up?
I lean against the wall behind me and slowly let my body slide under the water, until my head is completely submerged.
I wanted to be consumed into the water.
Down the drain.
I wanted my thoughts to go down the drain.
I wanted everything to be swallowed by the drain.
Especially myself.
"Lia!" I heard a faint voice yell.
Was mason back already?
Maybe he didn't trust me enough to leave me alone.
I felt strong hands reach under my head, lifting it out of the comforting water.
"Lia, please open your eyes, Please." The person begged. It didn't sound like mason. Their voice didn't match mason's more raspier one.
I heard them inhale deeply before pulling my mouth open and exhaling into it.
They repeated this 2 more times before i felt like bile was rising in my throat. They pushed their fists into my chest and thats when i felt myself gain full consciousness.
My eyes fluttered open as they were still pushing on my chest until i coughed up fluids with one last pump.
My vision was blurred due to the tears that were stinging my eyelids. I blink them away, my eyes meeting liam's relieved ones. I scan his face, that had pain and delicacy written all over it.
His cheeks were stained with tears. "Lia what the hell are you doing?" He breathed helping me out of the water.
He looked tired. Like he hadn't slept in weeks. I felt sorry for inflicting all this onto him.
I let out a sob as he wrapped a towel around me. "I'm sorry, I'm just so tired. I'm so tired of walking around like everything is fine. It's not fine!" I cry "My own fucking mother wouldn't notice if i had disappeared, you're worthless." i spat at myself. My voice sounded as if i had swallowed a gallon of rust.
He gave me a look, that made me feel so sorry. Like i wasn't his twin sister that he always teased by saying he was 3 minutes older than. Like i wasn't the one to pick him up when dad stomped him to the ground, when mom would tell him she didn't give a fuck that he was getting a scholarship to his dream school. He looked at me like i was a a girl. A girl who was broken. The girl he saw, he never once dreames of seeing. She was hurting all over, numbing from the pain.
I am that girl, and with that one look from him, she broke down into ugly, heartbreaking tears that held every piece of her. And as each one fell, she lost a piece of herself until she was completely gone.
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Sorry this chapter is stupid short but i updated after forever! My life is just turning into a RolLEr cOastEr and it kinda sucks ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ so yeah i'm gonna type anither chapter and it'll be up tonight even though NO ONE is reading this i like to talk to my 4 readers whip its still weird to think abt even though its LITERALLY 4 people reading these 4 people are reading my story its pretty damn cool anywhoooooooo im gonna start on this new chapter so ill see YA at the end of that !!! Whip i know no one is gonna read all of this ! who cares
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Romance"THIS IS YOUR FAULT, NOAH," I scream in his face. "It's all your fault" I sink to the floor. Hot tears streaming down my face making my cheeks burn. "I'm sorry, Lia." He says bending down to reach my eye level. "It's far too late for sorries." I st...
