Realising my True Feelings(Chapter 12)

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OK GUYS HERES THE NEXT CHAPTER, THIS IS JUST SOME OF THE LETTERS HARRY WROTE TO DESTINY PROMISE IT WILL BE ANOTHER LONG ONE.

(DESTINY POV)

when Harry handed me the letters he left the room and told me that he would make breakfast which gave my time to read the letter alone, i opened the box and there was probably 15 letters in there that he never sent me, i was trying to find the first letter he written me it was all the way at the bottom, while i was looking for it i noticed that there was a letter from someone to him, but the letter was never opened.

Dear Destiny,

i know that you are still avoiding me and thats why you didn't come to as goodbye to me but i want you to know that i really did feel sad that you didn't come to see me when i left, i just thought you would look past everything for our friendship. Anyways i just wanted to know how you were doing I really don't want to to be mad at me i honestly done know what i have done wrong to deserve you not to like me anymore i thought we were best friends and that we could tell anything to each other. Anyways i just decided to write you because  have been her for about 3 days and i miss you so much and i don't know if i cant handle not talking to you anymore i just really want you to tell me whats wrong, i know i will regret every single day of my life not asking you what happened but thats why im starting now, please write me back i and if you don't i understand that you don't want to talk to me, please i really miss having my best friend to talk to anymore.

                                                                                                                      Harry 

i couldn't believe that he wrote me that and that he never sent it to me, i felt really bad not saying good bye to him but i didn't want it to be the last time i ever got to see him and i regretted it every single day that i never said good bye to him and that i never told him how i really felt, but i guess not that anymore cause i did already, i was looking for the second letter but Harry walked in and told me that breakfast was ready, he didn't notice that i had the letter in my hand, he looked down at me hands and turned red.

'' so i guess you read it?'' he asked me approaching the bed.

'' umm... yeah, its really umm-'' i was inturrupted by Harry. 

'' yeah im sorry i wrote that when i was still mad at you i didn't mean anything in that letter'' he said to me looking at the letter i was holding.

'' what are you talking about i only read the first letter you wrote me'' i told him totally confused of what he was talking about.

'' umm... yeah ok so do you wanna eat now?'' he asked me standing up form the bed and walked to the door, i quickly followed starting to regain my balance but i was still a little dizzy, when we reached the kitchen there was a full table set up, with egg some bread and my favourite pancakes, Harry really was a good cook but he hasn't cooked for me in a year or so. after we finished eating i headed up to his room a again and tried to find the letter he was talking about, while we were eating it was very awkward i tried to ask him what happened last night to refresh my memory but he wouldn't tell me anything he said it was all a blank to him too. i finally found the letter he was talking about and i started to read it 

Dear Destiny,

ok well this is now my third letter and i still havn't sent you any of the letter that i wrote you but i am willing to send you them after i write this to you, so anyways i have been in London now for 3 weeks and still no contact with you, you haven't wrote me yet or texted me or called me and i feel like our friendship is truly over, how could you do this i was always there for you and you couldn't support me just this once, how selfish could you be, we used to talk about how much we would always be there for each other but i guess not, i would always be there for you when your parents were in a fight, i guess your just like everybody else selfish and ungrateful you were never really my friend you were probably just stringing my along, well let me tell you i don't really care you if i don't or do see you again, i wish i would never see you again, this will be and is a forever goodbye Destiny.

                                                                                                                               Harry.

I couldn't believe that he just said something like that and how he called me selfish and that i didn't care anymore, what was he talking about he didn't care that if we see each other again. i'm so mad at him i hate him how could he say those thing i had a very good explanation on why i didn't keep in touch with him, i was in total rage when Harry walked in, i looked up at  and he knew that i read the letter.

'' Destiny i am so sorry i it was a spure of the moment i was angry and i was trying to express my feelings.'' he said while walking up to me.

'' thats ok, i better go thanks for everything Harry'' i said feeling very hurt, i stormed out of there as fast as i could and i ran to Chelsea's house, i didin't really wanted to chat with her so i ran upstairs and slammed the door. 

(Harry Pov)

how could i just let her read all those letters the truth was i didn't remember that i wrote what i said before it was to late. i knew she looked so hurt when she said it was fine, whats wrong with me just when it was fine between us i had to screw things up again with her. i re-read all the letters i wrote to her, the real reason why didin't send them to her was because i thought he didn't want to keep in touch we havn't talked in like a months so what was my letters going to do so i just decided to keep them. 

i really needed to stop hurting her i really have to win her back, something i couldn't admit to myself until now, i am on love with me best friend and i needed to learn how to win her back. it was already 7:30pm when Marked walked in, he looked like he had a great time last night.

'' heey man what happend to Destiny she ran into the house and just locked herself in her room?"

'' i have no clue'' i said to him. man i was the worst liar ever hopefully he wouldn't notice. i headed to me room.

'' dude come on we all know your the worst liar in history, tell me what happened'' Mark asked following me to my room.

'' she found the letters i never sent to her'' i said looking embarrassed.

'' what how did she find out did you give it to her?'' he asked, Mark akways new about those letters especially the one when i got really mad.

''she was in my room and she found the box'' i said to him pointing at the opened box on be bed.

'' and you just let her read the letters?'' he said getting all defensive

'' i didn't, i left the room to get breakfast and she just started to read them, then she finally found the bad letter and she read it, i walked in while she was reading it and i explained to her that i was just mad, she said she understood but her eyes looked hurt'' i said catching my breathe, i totally regret writing all those stupid letters.

''dude, whats wrong with you, you keep hurting her like this, you really need to find out what you want because Destiny is an awesome person and she does'nt deserve to be treated like this.'' Mark said as he got up and left the house, he was right she didn't deserve it and i had not right to do this to her. i just want to know how to get her back.

OK HERE YOU GUYS GO, THANSK FOR EVERYBODY WHO READS MY STORY IT TOOK REALLY LONG TO POST THIS, I JUST HAD NO TIME, PLEASE COMMENT ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT TO HAPPEN NEXT AND PLEASE FAN, THANK YOU GUYS <3

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