Past Reverses Present

Chapter 4

*Flashback to 2016*

One day , I went to School just like any other day but People weren't normal with me at all ....
I walked in the hall and Guys were laughing at me .. What is even weirder is Jenny "The most Famous lesbian" Right there was Totally checking me out !

I totally ingored what was happening ,I told myself that Teens do a lot of weird and Unexplained things most of the time.

But then it was the Break time ..
I sat alone Waiting for my friend Savana who was late.
Then The bunch of guys that were laughing at me in the morning walked in With "Tom" who i considered as my partner.

*Get to Know Tom*
Tom is in a higher grade than me and We looked alike in many things.
What was most important is that he is not in that "Bad boys Gang" .
I met him one day in the library because we were looking for the same book , which was "Psychocology 101".
We talked and i fell in love with his Personality.
Tom had a korean ancestry and his mother is italian , So both of us was a "Foreign" at School.
We met a lot after that and we decided that what we have is much more than A friendship .
Our realtionship was something else ... We weren't that "High school couple" Who gets drunk everyday and Get in a relationship with someone just for their Bodies.
Our relationship was Built on Respect and Common thoughts that make us Different from others.
We decided that we will achieve our Dreams together and each one of us will help the other to Reach their goals.
Tom was that introvert boy who always dresses in Black and is not at all interested in "Being liked by Others" .
When i met him , I knew that i will never find someone like him in any other place.
He understood my Complex mind because His mind was complex too, He treated me in the way i want to be treated ,He knew the key to my heart With being interested in my thoughts , Decisions and everything which was related to me , He motivated me to keep going in everything and Helped me in every possible way to be good at what i love.
What was most attractive about him was never his muscles but that he was a Sciences Nerd Just like me.
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I widely opened my mouth seeing Tom with those guys.
He walked in the School resturant with those guys and made fun of me .. I was Shocked and didn't understand anything .. Suddenly everyone was laughing at me .....
He began to Call me with names and i had to put a limit for this.
I asked him why is he doing that to me ? He replied In a rude way : "You are trying to look innocent but everyone knew your truth !nothing is hidden anymore ! everyone now knows that you are lesbian .. Shame on you! How could you do that to me and Pretend that You are in love with me ! Savana told us EVERYTHING about you ! I knew it from your behaviour ! Hanging out with Girls , Avoiding Guys and your FAKE shyness !"

I did not have anything to say ... I ran to the bathroom , Closed the door and Could not stop crying....
When i went out everyone was Staring at me and Called me a "Liar".
I could not Stay there anymore and went home.
My parents weren't there so i stayed in my room the whole day and kept listening to music ..
I was depressed , Confused and dying inside.
How could Savana the "friend" i thought i had and Tom the one i loved the most do that to me..
I hated my life and everything .. It is really hard getting broken by Your soulmate ..
I could not go to school for two days .. Then at the third day , I went there my Head raised up ! Not caring about anyone ! I had to be Strong and live for myself ! But since that moment my heart was cold and empty and could not welcome anyone or anything anymore ....
When Tom and everyone at school knew that Savana was liar and everything about me was a stupid rumor They appologized Specially Tom , He felt really guilty and hated himself.
I preteneded that I forgave them, But Tom wanted to be with me again .. I refused .
He Hated how he was Brainwashed and That he lost me .
He started to become even more of an introvert..
A week later , He suicided.
I felt Guilty but then remembered that i was the one who should have suicided not him , But i was just Brave to face the obstacles.