Welcoming of Us

I Have Big News

Out of all the signs that I have seen today. This one had to be the most confusing. I mean I know what it means, but my mind doesn't want to work with my now teary eyes. I feel like curling into a ball, but at the same time jumping around like a little girl. A little girl. Could it be a little girl? I remember when I was younger all I wanted was a little girl. To teach her about love and chocolate. Two of life's most compatible pairs.

I sit up from the toliot seat and wipe away my tears. Can't let Alex see me cry, he will definitely ask questions. I go and wrap up the pee stick into a bundle of toilet paper and throw it in the trash. I lean over the sink and look into the mirror. My eyes are a little pink from my shed years and look so worn out. "Get yourself together. It's only another person." I snort out a laugh and open the bathroom door.

I live with my current boyfriend, Alex, in a two-bedroom apartment. We have been dating for four years when we meet at a collage party. Once we turned nineteen we decided to get a place together and now were both twenty one and leaving the free life. Well, kinda free, I have a job at Barnes and Nobles while Alex works at a newspaper printing company and part time at a coffee shop. Which means half the time he comes home smelling like books and coffee. Mhmm.

But I don't think coffee, chocolate, or books could make this any better.

I stand outside of our bedroom door, leaning against the ocean blue wall wringing out my hands. How could I let this happen? I mean I don't hate myself for it, but how would he react. And I have to tell him sooner or later. It's just I don't know if I have the courage yet. What the hell, the worst he can say is no.

"Hey, you okay? Are you coming to bed soon?" Alex says, poking his head out of the door.

"Yeah. Just give me a sec."

Guess its time to test the thick and thinness of our relationship. Hopefully when he said we would be together forever, he meant it.

"Yeah, I'm okay. Just ready to get into bed." I say falling inside the room. I push on Alex's back until we reach the bed and we both fall onto it. "So ready to start my day tomorrow. I may be getting a raise from the coffee shop." Alex says with the biggest smile of the century, while getting under the duvet and getting comfy.

I lean over him and give him a peck on the cheek, "I'm so proud of you. Maybe we can get that new tv we saw last week. And since you gave your big news I may as well give you mine." Okay, here we go. No turning back now. We have already stated we have the news now we must report it.

"I'm pregnant!" I give a little excited scream at the end to give my surprise a light mood. However, instead of another happy scream of even a shrug of the shoulders from Alex I get complete silence. Alex's whole face is drained of color and his eyes are filled with fear. "Are you okay, babe. Can you give me some emotion." I whisper as my mood slowly drops.

"I don't want it."

"What do you mean you don't want it. It's here." I say pointing at my stomach. "It's yours!" Standing up beside the bed, my fist clench and I can feel my temper rising. Alex jumps out of the bed too and comes to stand in front of me, "Well I'm still young Scarlet, and I'm not ready for kids yet."

"I'm young too and we just finished school. Do you think I planned for a baby?"

"Well your always talking about kids with your friends. I didn't think you were serious."

"I wasn't, all friends talk about kids with each other. So sorry I was just being a girl."

"Well what are you going to do with it."

"I'm keeping it. What else am I going to do? And it takes two to tango, and your not leaving this duet." I say putting my finger in his face.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean. I don't want it. Just get an abortion."

"How dare you say that, I'm not killing my baby. Look if you don't want to be apart of your baby's life, then tell me now so I'm not wasting my time."

"I. Don't. Want. It." Alex says exaggerating each word. "Okay then, well I'll get my stuff and go." I go grab my suitcase from the closet and start to throw my clothes into it. Once my draw has been cleared and my shoes are out of the closet I set it by the door. I grab up my purse and stick my phone and car keys inside. I walk over to Alex standing by the door and give him a hard slap. "That's for the baby. And I'll have my furniture out by the end of the week. Thanks for everything."

I grab my suitcase and walk down the hall and out the door making sure to give it a nice slam. When I get to the bottom of our apartment's stairs I head over to my car. I get my baggage and purse situated into the backseat and then hop into the driver's seat. I bang my hands on the steering wheel repeatedly getting out all my frustrations out. "Ugh! Get your life together scar. Go to you mom's till you get yourself back together. Then you can get you a new place and start all over. No worries." I crank up the car and back out unto the road. I drive to my mom's place, it's only twenty minutes from where I live. Lived. My mom has lived in this house for half of her life, so to me it's always been a safe haven. I finally reached my destination.

I go and park the car and walk up the few steps to her door. I give the door three light knocks and can already hear the shuffling of feet. Next thing I know my mom answers the door. "Hey sweetie, what are you doing over here so late? Did something happen between you and Alex?"

"Mom, I have something to tell you."

My mom steps aside letting me in the house. "Of course, come on inside." I barely make it to the couch to sit down before my mom starts to shot out questions. Did Alex propose? Have you been fired from your job? Are you pregnant? Have ya eaten?

"Well one of those things are right. Alex didn't propose, I haven't been fired, and yes mom I have eaten."

"Are you sure you've eaten? You look a little thin. Me and your father have seen all these commercials about diets. Are you on one? You know those are not good for you." My mom rambles coming to sit beside me. "Hey mom, is dad here? I've got to tell you guys something."

"Of course he's here. Danny come and greet your daughter." Momma yells down the hall towards dad's workstation. You can hear a little commotion down the hall, but soon my dad pops out.

My dad comes around the coffee table and gives me a hug. "Hey baby girl. How was your day?" "It was good." I scoot over so there is enough room on the couch for him. My mom pats my knee and sits to face me." So what did you need to tell us."

"Well mom and dad, I have some good news and bad news. First, I may have to stay with you for a while. And uh.. well... ummm.. I-I may be pregnant. Well I am pregnant."

"WHAT!! I'm gonna have a grand baby. Have you told Alex yet?" My mom says grabbing ahold of my hand. "That seems to be my dilemma. Mom, Alex says he doesn't want a part of its life. I was wondering if I could stay here till I found me a place." My mom gets up from the couch and gives me her hand, "Honey, who in the world said you need a man to survive. I lived half my marriage alone with your father away in the war. So lets get you settled in, you are always welcome at home."

*___________________________________*          (A/N It's a whale for Pete's sake.)

Hey peeps!!!!

So here is my new story. I know this chapter is short. I stayed up all night writing it, so I hope you liked it. Anyway, hopefully more chapters and longer chapters are to come.

Thanks for reading.

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