“You never love me.” Sabi ko kay Rylie, my boyfriend, soon to be ex. He sighed and my tears suddenly fell. I knew it. Ever since this relationship started, alam ko nang walang love. Attraction lang. “I’m sorry.” He said. He started walking away from me.
“It’s Julie, isn’t it?” I asked him. Julie’s my cousin. He met her months ago. He faced me. I knew right from the start,mahuhulog sya sa pinsan ko. At hindi nga ako nagkamali. “look, it’s over.” Sabi niya sakin at tuluyan nang lumabas ng restaurant.
I’m still here ,trying to enjoy my food. Pero mukha lang akong baliw. Iyak ng iyak habang kinakain ang pasta carbonara na inorder ko kanina para kay Rylie.
Someone came and seated sa inuupuan ni Rylie kanina. He put his handkerchief at the table and left. He didn’t say anything. I never saw his face. I didn’t bother. I grabbed the handkerchief and left the place.
I went home. Dere- deretsong nag marcha papunta sa kwarto ko. And cried like a five year old kid who lost her candy. I live alone. So, no one’s there to comfort me.
Nakita ko ang larawan namin ni Rylie, we looked so happy. Ilang ‘I love you’ ang sinabi ko sa kanya. And yet, I didn’t even receive a single ‘I love you too’. What a pathetic life. First boyfriend, first heartbreak. I thought he was my happy ending. I was wrong.
But the moment when I introduced my cousin to him, I saw the spark in his eyes. Full of joy, full of happiness. Since then, nangamba na ako. Pano kung magkagusto sya sa pinsan ko? Masyado akong paranoid.
I confronted him. I said I think he likes my cousin, Julie. But he said he didn’t. They’re just friends. At dahil sa katangahan ko naman, I believed him. Akala ko, matutuloy na ang happy ending ko. But I was wrong again.
Umalis ako ng bansa for a month. Dahil narin sa project ko dun. I’m a fashion designer and I have to be there. Hindi ako nag hinalang kasama niya si Julie sa mga panahong wala ako sa tabi niya. I trusted him. He even ask for a pasalubong.
