The lover boy

Chapter 6

Your POV
I look at Finn my heart sinking all the way to my feet. He walked over to me and asked "What happened back there?" I just kept crying and said "I'm sorry for making  scene and for making it look like you did it when you didn't do anything wrong." "I did it to myself." I continued I felt so bad I put him through my pain and heartache. He just looked at me and said "Y/n you can tell me. Please tell me, I love you." I looked at him and said "I-I love you too." "Tell me what's wrong please," he cried. So I lifted up my sleeve of my jacket and  showed Finn. He looked at my cut skin with tears in his eyes. I felt so bad I hated myself. So much. So so much. He just looked at me and hugged me tighter than he has done before. I could feel the love in his hug. It was not a sympathy hug it was real. And I really needed it. I cried on his warm chest. He held me tight. I loved this. This feeling. That's when the cast came upstairs and knocked on the door gently. "It's open." finn said. They all saw me crying. They all saw Finn crying. They were in shock. I was in pain. Then I heard Finn's heartbeat and felt a little better then he played with my hair. I loved it when he did that. But then I sat up off of his chest and everyone came rushing to my side for comfort. I may have just met them today but I felt like I knew them for a lifetime. I didn't want Finn to move. And he didn't either. I loved him and he loved me. Everyone saw my arm and asked why I was cutting myself. I told them almost everything. "My mom died when I was five and I thought it was all my fault, I still do think it's all my fault, I feel like I killed my mother."  Finn sat up with tears coming down his eyes "Y/n if you say that again I will cry even harder. That was not your fault don't put that on yourself ever!" Omg I love him so fucking much he means so much to me and I never want to loose my shithead. "Also my dad has been abusing me for a while." They all gasped it was just normal to me I guess. "Y/n why didn't you tell me these things sooner?" Finn said sadly. " I didn't want you to feel the way that you do now." I managed to get out while sobbing. Everyone else didn't have anything to say because they were just in shock. But Finn did. He always did. I know they mean well but I just felt like Finn was the only one who cared about me. I know that is not true but I just felt like it.

Finn's POV
Y/n continued "I have tried to commit suicide multiple times but I always thought about Finn and how much he means to me and I never did it." Those words hit my heart so hard I was going to cry even more than I already was I didn't even know that was possible. I love her and I never want her to feel pain. I wish pain was never a thing. "Fuck Y/n why didn't you ever tell me, you know I would've comforted you!" I shouted. I hope I didn't sound mad. At that moment all of my friends had stood up and Millie yelled "Y/n if you ever need any of us just know you can always call or text us even when we are on set and at anytime of night or day I don't care if we are at school or work if you need us we are there." "YEAH!" everyone agreed. They are the best friends anyone could even ask for. I got instantly happy when I saw Y/n's real smile that I saw the first time we told each other we loved each other. But then her smile slowly dropped as did mine. She looked at me and said with a worried look in her eyes "What will my dad do if he knew I was around boys? What would he do if he finds out I told you guys? What if Chris comes back?" We all looked at each other in confusion. We all at the exact same time asked "WHO IS CHRIS?!" She looked at Noah,Gaten,Caleb, then Millie and Sadie, and looked at me last. Then she said "Chris is my ex boyfriend... who abused me. He would always hit me and try to rape me. It was very painful, I wanted to leave sooner but he wouldn't let me until one day he just said fuck you dumb bitch smacked me across the face and walked away." I looked her straight in the eyes and yelled "NO ONE MESSES WITH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!" I have never said that before but she just smiled and stared at me. That's when Nick came bursting in the room scared out of his mind. " I heard someone yelling! Is everything alright?" Sadie and Millie just nodded and then I looked her dead in the eyes and asked "Where does he live?".....

Hey guys sorry about he really long chapter I just had a lot on my mind some of this stuff really did happen to me of course not the meeting Finn and the cast, and my dad isn't abusive and my mom isn't dead my dad is just distant.~~ lots of love the writer