His Secrets

Chapter 1

So wattpad deleted this for some reason...

"Do you ever feel like life is just passing you by? Like everything you do is never going to be good enough? I feel like that all of the time. It's like no matter how hard I try I can never be good enough. No one expects much from me anyways. Want to know why? Because I'm Jai Brooks, the raging FIFA addict."

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Luke stared at the notebook in his hands blankly, trying to comprehend what he had just read. What even was that? Was it Jai's diary? He shook his head slowly and placed the notebook back on Jai's bed where he had found it.

Luke was concerned about his twin, but his investigation could wait. He was a busy guy and if Jai even suspected he had read his diary then he would get his head bit off. Luke knew that something was up with Jai. He'd actually known something was wrong for a while, but now it was getting worse.

Jai used to be laid back, easy going, and shy. Now for some reason he was always angry and when someone pissed him off he would have an extremely short fuse.

There had to be something going on with his twin brother. He knew it. He was worried and honestly he had every right to be.

Luke made a mental note to check up on this, but for now it was time to film a video.

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"Hey guys we're the Janoskians!" The four Aussie boys chorused perfectly for once. "And this is Extreme Truth or Dare!"

The four guys were in chairs sitting around the pool table. As in usual Janoskian fashion they were filming the intro of their video last. Things had been really intense with this video.

Beau had thrown up four times. Daniel had thrown up twice. Jai was quiet and almost uncooperative. And Luke was just trying to hold the entire video on his shoulders like usual.

"Good video boys!" Beau chuckled, slapping Jai on the shoulder. "When is Jamie supposed to be coming over?"

"He said he'd be here whenever he got here or never." Jai answered distantly.

"Or never?" Luke asked, raising an eyebrow at his twin brother in confusion.

"Yeah he went to a party last night and things happened. It's a long story, Like, don't worry about it."

"Whatever." Luke scoffed, annoyed that Jai wouldn't just tell him. What Luke didn't notice was Jai biting his lip and looking down sadly.

"Luke, hurry up and edit!" Beau yelled obnoxiously in Luke's direction, causing Luke to flip him off.

"Luke?" Jai asked suddenly. "I can tell you anything right?"

"Of course, Jai Jai, you know that..." Luke answered furrowing his eyebrows in confusion. As far as Luke was concerned, they did tell each other everything. They were twins. They were in it together.

"I...uh..." Jai trailed off and looked away again. "Nevermind, it's not important..."

"Jai, if something is bothering you, I'm always here for you." Luke promised, giving his twin brother a kind look. Jai hadn't been the sam for awhile now and everyone could see that. Luke wasn't crazy. Jai was hurting and he just wished he would open up to someone.

"I know that, Lukey. I'm just being dumb like usual. Don't worry about it." Jai laughed, shooting Luke a fake smile. He was going to tell Luke for a minute there. He was going to tell him everything, but then Luke looked concerned. He looked concerned and Jai didn't want to burden him with his problems. "Maybe we could go to the gym?"

"Sorry, Jai. I really need to edit this video right now." Luke sighed. He wanted to go, but he couldn't.

As Luke walked away he didn't see the single tear drop down his brother's face. He had other things to worry about though. He had three other videos besides the one they had just filmed to edit. Then there was that strange diary he found in Jai's room earlier. He definitely needed to investigate that, but he'd have to wait until Jai was gone to do that.

Luke walked into his room and grabbed his laptop before throwing himself down on his bed. He had work to do. As he was editing the video they had just filmed, he noticed it. Jai's eyes looked dead. They looked dull and lifeless like they had lost their spark. They weren't the eyes he remembered his twin brother having at all.

"When did that happen?" Luke asked himself. Curious, he went to their YouTube channel and went back to previous videos from 6 months ago. He still had the dead look in his eyes. luke went back a year. It was worse then. He went back four years.

There it was.

Jai's eyes looked so full of life. He looked so happy and innocent. He looked like a sweet kid that could do no wrong. That was the Jai that Luke remembered. Not whoever this Jai was that looked lifeless and depressed.

Something was seriously wrong with his brother and he needed to find out exactly what that was.