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Through this Together

Oh , well let me start off by saying my name is Kelly. I'm 16 & right now, my life is a total piece of shit. Well, I get treated like shit from everyone especially my parents and my little sister. I have friends , but they're fake. They leave me out on everything. Everyone uses me , hell they even hurt me. Well if you want , I can go into my love life. Seriously, it's shit. I think that a guy likes me back as well but it turns out to be a false statement. No guy likes me. The results to me liking a guy is one, a guy ignores me, two, a guy turns out fake, or three, a guy just uses me to get in my pants like all the guys in this planet.

Ugh, also I'm depressed. I do cut myself, but I can tell you I've been four months clean. That's great of me to be clean, but I-I still want to cut. I've told this one guy that I thought he 'liked' me that I cut , and then he told me not to do it again, so I promised I wouldn't . Then we had a fight which he turned out to be fake, then he said he was gonna tell my dad that I cut. I hate him, I still do till this day. But let me tell you something, he's a manwhore & I had to find that out by my own cousin , plus his cousin! wow. That's all I have to say.

Well I like to dress like a hipster . I love 5 Seconds of Summer , A day to remember , Bastille , and Pierce the veil . I like them because their music helped me from my suicidal thoughts. My favorite out of 5SOS is Calum because he's really cut & precious. I love his lisp , it's so adorable. I wish I can become his girlfriend but , haha that's only a fantasy that won't come true.

So I'll tell you something, I liked or like this guy. I can't say his name because I'll be embarrassed plus what happens if he's reading this ?. Well I started to talk to him during the week of valentines day, We talked for like proximately the whole week, but then I noticed that he started to ignore me. I felt so sad because I knew by that point if I did something wrong . I've realized that he probably ignored me because I'm annoying. Well there was that answer or he was busy because he had lots of school work to do. I annoy everyone and that's probably why everyone leaves me.

So then, I had to find out by myself that I was annoying him and that he had a girlfriend that he never told me, but he did tell me that he was 'single'. I'll tell you about him. He's is cute and looks like Calum Hood, he is cute with his smile, and oh god why did I fall in love with a guy that doesn't like me back ? Well I decided to drop him, but I still have little feelings for him but not that much tho. God, the feels. Anyways , this is a little beginning of my story & enjoy the complicated,depressing,happy story .