Heat filled my cheeks. I stared at the straight faced Ryo, sitting there, completely silent. He couldn't be serious, I don't even think he was gay. What bothered me the most is he was doing this for publicity, because I was a pornstar and he was the producer. He wanted to make the biggest surprise to the media, but I had to agree with him. He knew what was best, he guided me, I never had to open my eyes. Well, what was I gonna say? Oh course I'd fuck him, oh course I'd hit that but marry? I had to say something he was waiting. What am I gonna do? I responded no but I couldn't do that to him...
"Ok."
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I just agree, like I normally do. I turn my head, I don't really want to look at him right now. He got whatever he wanted, I was his puppet. I don't understand why I let him do things like this to me. It was like a merry go round of emotions, and I wanted to cry. Tears fell from my cheeks and I wiped them away with my hoodie sleeve. I started to sob, I cried in front of him a lot, he was obviously used to it. He probably didn't want a crybaby as a husband, I looked so pathetic. He shoved a box of tissues across the table, I blew my nose and shoved it back towards him.
"Done now?" He asked he eyes dark.
"Yes" I breath heavily.
I stand up and he follows, I didn't really wanna spend some time with him right now but I don't think he was leaving yet. My heart ached and squirmed, this wasn't some porno I could rehearse for. My eyes felt a bit heavier from the tears and my face felt frozen. Ryo suddenly did something unexpected, he gripped my arm and hugged it as I started walking out the door. I looked back at him, he was blushing and holding me, my heart stopped in shock.
"Where to next, boyfriend?"
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It's been a week, of Ryo acting completely different. He holds my hand openly, and kisses my hand and occasionally gives me a quick hug. He was really doing this publicity stunt, it hurt me but I'd do it for him. I sat in my apartment, my heater on and blankets wrapped around my long body. My jet black hair hung in my face as I stared outside my window. The snow fell, it was the most bitter season, the dead of winter. It hurt to even imagine being outside right now, I felt bad for people who had to work. I kept starting and saw a white car drive by, suddenly stopping in front of the building. A man? Or woman walked out in a expensive coat, must be very warm. The thought made me happy. I sat in my chair, and did nothing, I honestly could do this all day. Suddenly, a knock broke my peace. I groaned and shuffled to the door, I was only wearing boxers but I didn't mind. A lot of people have seen me cum. I opened the door and saw Ryo, red cheeks and pale eyes.
"A-Akira can I come in?" He asked, shaking.
"Yes!" I exclaimed as I hauled him into my arms.
I carried him across the room bridal style, in a sort of run. He was a ball of ice, I needed to get him warmer. I placed him on my bed and he sat there still shaking a bit. I started to undo his jacket and underneath he was only wear a white t-shirt and jogging pants, no wonder he's freezing. I slid off his jacket then sat next to him, wrapping a blanket around him.
"Why did you come out? It's dangerous outside!" I frowned.
"What do you mean... the weather!? Akira I'm not glass I can handle myself."
He shrugged off the blanket but I put it back onto him. We sat there in silence, I've never thought about how we were in a relationship now. I had to treat it as an agreement but... it still was something. Maybe to me. I ripped the blanket from him and in the midst of him reacting to it I placed his face in my hand. I directed his face to mine and held it close to me.
"A-Akira" Ryo shuddered.
"You wanted me to give effort right? You wanted this..." I almost was about to cry, but I couldn't.
"What are you saying!"
"I'd rather show you."
I placed his lips onto mine, this was very homosexual, I don't know if he was actually into it. I was enjoying myself immensely, but the tears still fell. Suddenly Ryo gained the strength to break the kiss.
"Akira... I didn't know."
I paused and looked into his eyes, which were burning with fire.
"You're Gay..." He thought for a second,"and your in love with me."
I took a second to process his words, how did he know I was in love with him? Just from that one kiss! Also how wasn't he gay, he did want to be my husband.
"Yes."
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