HELP!

4.Casey-ann

Casey:

To everyone who believed in me, I apologize profusely, It hurts me even more, knowing what I put you through.It wasn't your fault. I know you didn't realize what you'd done. I'm just sad. I'm sorry. it's just Nobody listened. Nobody really cared.

to mum and dad,thank you for all your love and i'm sorry that you always fought with each other, you would keep me up all night talking about money and honestly i felt at fault, i wanted everything that i couldn't have. don't ever blame yourself ,you done the best you could but i'm sorry that the devil took over and i started listening to him instead. i hope you can forgive me because deep down i didn't want to do it but i had to i just couldn't keep up the fight. i'm still your little girl and you taught me better than this but i just couldn't handle it anymore. i love you so much that it hurts to think that i'm gonna disappoint you again.

to james and Ethan  thanks for all your jokes you two were the most loving and funniest people alive.when we were young you both had my back making me feel like the queen, like i could conquer anything,but then we got older and you had your own work to do so i get why you were never there anymore when i needed you. you were my brothers so i expected too much from you and i stupidly never thought about you having your own life and honestly you're only human so it okay. thank you for making me out to be stronger than i really was, for making me look prettier than i really was and all together a better person. i love you both and i hope that you believe me because i'm sorry for all the words that i have ever said that stung you or the compliments i never made.I'm sorry for all the stress, anger, sadness, and grief I have caused this family, because that's the last thing I wanted to do. Both of you will always mean more to me than I can express, and I'm sorry my goodbye to you had to be this way

to jay, you were my one and only at least that what i thought but not even our love could have saved me. i remember asking myself if i could die of a broken heart and then i met you. at first i felt scared to open up to you but eventually i let you in and you were my #1 person to trust. My love for you will never change. but soon you started getting a bit distance and i felt like my presence was frustrating you. i felt like My kisses burn into your soul,My touch melted on your skin,My eyes reflected my misery Of the darkness deep within in me. i know i'm probably over-reacting maybe it was the stress of the wedding that was getting to you and i should have given you the benefit of the doubt and talked to you about it to you but i just couldn't. i deeply apologize and I hope one day you can accept this letter and forgive me for leaving so abruptly.

to Amanda, you hurt me really bad, i felt neglected when i should have been loved. i can't blame you for everything but you never let me be happy. i wanted jay and you just didn't think i deserved him, i wanted to be with you but you just shut me out. that it not what a good sister does but i still love you i wish the best for you. i also want you to know that i still remember what happened when we were kids. when we built forts and read stories late at night and drank hot chocolate in the summer because we were weird like that.your still and always will be my big sister i just have one wish. please come back to the family, i want my death to bring us closer than to tear us apart because with you we will be the strongest family alive.please consider it... i love you with all my soul so take it and keep it safe, i will still be here for anyone that needs me.

to Bryan, i hope you enjoyed yourself because i truly didn't enjoyed anything about that night, it was my hen do because i was getting married to someone else. i still don't know what about that you didn't understand. you forced your self on me and made me feel so violated. i lost all my respect for you.Don't ever use alcohol as a excuse, i hope that people figure out what you were. don't worry i have forgiven you since i didn't want to leave this earth with more sadness on my soul and shoulders.

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