HELP!

7.Amanda

i swear jay needs help he had no good reason to attack bryan like that. i tried to help but that just made matters worse. the way he treated me was disgusting. i bet your wondering why i didn't want casey to be with jay. well this is why, he was violent and he loved to hit anything in his path of destruction whether it was a wall or a broken soul. he would hurt her every time he was hurting and then he would call her names and let her run off back to me. she would take her pain out on me and when i finally figured what happened i told her that she didn't deserve a man like that. i should have said that he doesn't deserve her but apart of me loved the fact that i wasn't the only person that cried myself to sleep and hid away from others.

i didn't enjoys her pain but i didn't hate that she was suffering. we fought everytime we saw each other and it got too much that i told her i wished she was dead. the hatred had grown and to this day i regret the road we chose to take.

Jay was a strange guy, after casey fought with me he would come out of nowhere like a knight in false amour, taking her away and holding her close, whispering words like 'its gonna be okay' or 'i love you and im here for you' as if he wasn't the starter of all this. As if he wasn't the one that really made her get upset. after that she would follow him home like a lost puppie and forget all the shit he had done to her.

It's like her black eyes didn't remind her of anything, she acted like she didn't notice her bruises and that her broken limbs/ribs were all accidents. i know she wanted someone to figure out the truth, maybe thats why she's gone, because she longed for someone to set her free so she set herself free. its sad to think that i couldn't- no i didn't try to save her but i had my reason. she never let me in and i gave up on trying to break down her strongly built walls. she didn't want me in so i stopped fighting to enter. i shouldn't have,i should have kept fighting for her and i should have been by her side but she made her choice of jay over me. I love bryan but i wouldn't never have chosen him over casey.Bryan was my soulmate but casey is my blood sister. i guess being blood related didn't mean shit to her.so why should i care? thats all i would keep asking myself over and over during this whole predicament.