Love... (Writing contest one-shot)

Love..

//and that was the hardest thing to accept. Love.\\

   Colleen's POV

I sat up in bed. I could feel the cold of winter wrapping around me like a blanket. In the other room I could hear Lin and Vanessa still asleep. I quietly got out of bed and tiptoed down the hall to the kitchen. I felt my stomach growl but I didn't have the energy or will power to eat anything. I got a glass of water and silently slipped back into my room.
I put the water on my bedside table and went to my closet and kneeled down in front of the safe. I slowly and carefully unlocked it and took out the contents inside. My notebook and a pen. As I walked back to my bed notebook in hand I heard a cry from Sebastian room. He was awake which meant that Lin or Vanessa would be too.

     I jumped into my bed as fast as I could and pretended to be asleep. I heard my door open and a masculine voice mumble something and then the door closed. I quietly sat up and opened my notebook and began to write.

       Dear diary( I still think that's a stupid thing to write but whatever)
 
   I think all the years in foster care have ruined my ability to realize that I am loved. Sometimes I wonder if I am loved at all but in those moments of despair it seems the love my parent and friends have for me shine the brightest. 
     
           I always wonder what it would be like if things in my life played out differently would I be sitting in Lin and Vanessa's apartment and would I consider them my parents. Would I be able to consider Sebastian my brother.

           In life we need human interaction to survive but when it's been absent for so long it is so odd when it comes back. Especially when that human interaction is kind and full of love instead of hate and anger.

I'm incredibly grateful for Lin and Vanessa and everything that they've done for me. I don't know where I would be without them.

When love is gone for so long it becomes hard to accept it. Your always so scared to get hurt again. But once you let it in there is this warmth that I can't explain and it's wonderful.

I close my notebook and run out to the living room where I see Lin and Seb watching chuggington and I hear Vanessa making breakfast in the kitchen. I smile.

This is my home. This is where I will find myself. This is where I am loved.

I run over to Lin and hug him.

"Good morning Dear" he says with a smile

"Morning dad!" I swear I saw him smile even wider when I called him dad.

"BREAKFAST!" I heard Vanessa yell from the dining room. I picked up Sebastian and walked to the table. Feeling content and happy. I had finally found my family. And as we gathered around the table to eat I felt that happiness grow. I had never felt so happy in my life. I didn't care if I had to struggle in the future. Right now I was with my family and I was happy.

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Word Count: 550

A/N: So this probably sucks but I did it any way. As you probably know this is a contest entry for the lovely flyingthroughthewind and their story: 'Would that be enough' all credit goes to them. The characters and general plot belong to them. I highly recommend that you read the book and all their other books because they're amazing!

I hope you enjoyed!

Bye!!!