It's 2 a.m. and I'm sitting here crying because you're friends with the girl you used to mess around with.
Those images and thoughts haunt me
I can't even say anything because I don't want you to think I'm a posseive girlfriend
It hurts me a lot when you sit there and talk to her more than you do me.
When you do talk to me she stares at me and when you ask me if something is wrong and I say nothing it's just so you can go back talking to her and she won't stare.
What I really want to say is, "Yes, there is something wrong. The fact that you couldn't tell me you and her used to be a thing hurts me. When you talk to her it's like I'm not even there. It hurts me and pisses me off. You're supposed to be mine not hers." But when I want to say that I tell myself I'll sound like a bitch and you'll leave me for her.
I tell myself that I have no right to say anything. That you don't have to tell me that she and you had a thing. So, I sit there on my phone being quite because that's what I'm good at, right? I sit there and listen to you laugh and her laugh and it kills me. It takes a lot for me to not just get up and leave because I feel like you wouldn't notice if I did. So, what's the point in staying?
It's 2 a.m. and I'm crying while you're sleeping peacefully. The reason I don't say anything is because I'm too nice to. I know I should because it's killing me to keep it in.
It's 2 a.m. and I'm not okay but you're fine.
It's 2 a.m. and I feel like I'm slowly dying on the inside.
~ Sorry if this is too emotional or personal. I'm just going through a lot at the moment and it helps expressing it somewhere. ~
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Poems, Stories/Short & maybe a lot more
PoetryWe are all human. We are all unique in our own unique way. So, why give hate to a person just because they are being them and you're not? I suck at writing so be prepared to cringe : )
