The Hindmost {Markson}

Chapter 40

(*Author's POV)

Reluctance and guilt were like hands grabbing and holding JB's ankles making his every step so difficult to take. Never before has he ever felt such hesitance in leaving a friend. The pain in Mark's eyes wouldn't seem to erase from his mind. His body moving on autopilot as he went to enter his shared apartment.

It went almost forgotten there was yet another battle to be fought as he opened and moved inside. He didn't know how he was supposed to explain this whole thing again to Jinyoung. He knew the trouble on his mind would be visible on his face. And Jinyoung would want to know why.

Not one for neatness at the moment he toed off his shoes carelessly stepping in further. And as predicted Jinyoung was sat on the couch reading a book. Both of them made eye contact. Jinyoung's face was quick to change seeing the worn look JB wore.

"Hey, your-...What's wrong?" Jinyoung spoke first closing his book.

JB didn't say anything feeling a sudden surge of anger. It was indisputable that JB cared for Jinyoung. But at that moment JB realized that he's never been so upset with Jinyoung before. He knew he shouldn't but he couldn't help but react to the immediate bubble of irritation.

Taking off his jacket he was wearing in a hurry he then proceeded to throw the clothing straight at Jinyoung's face. Reacting Jinyoung lifted his arms wanting to avoid the metal bits on the jacket that was roughly chucked at him.

"Never! Never again!" JB finally made a response as Jinyoung looked back at him in shock.

"What the he- Why did you do that??" Jinyoung replied now standing ignoring the slight dampness on the shoulder of the jacket as he tossed it aside.

"Because you you- You! You were wrong!" JB had to hold back the insults as he had to remind himself that he didn't want to cause more harm than needed.

"What are you talking about??"

"Mark and Jackson that what I'm talking about. You were wrong about Jackson and Mark believed you!" JB spoke with clenched teeth picturing Mark's tears stream down his reddened face.

"...Wrong? How was I wrong? They're living together-" It took a second for Jinyoung to get what JB was referring to.

"That's because they somehow avoided the truth of what was going on inside each other's minds. They were so vague and general with what they said they blew up the misunderstanding to something insurmountable!"

"What misunderstanding are you talking about?" Jinyoung asked not exactly certain about things.

"That misunderstanding was due to your lie three years ago. Remember? The one where you told Mark Jackson loved him." JB replied quickly his tone carrying a harshness to it.

It was so difficult not to point fingers but at the moment he just felt the need to drive the truth home. So Jinyoung could understand and see the weight of his lie. And unlike Jinyoung, JB had to witness the repercussions first hand.

"That wasn't a lie-"

"Bullshit! Yesterday Jackson himself told me he was not in any way romantically involved with Mark. You were wrong Jinyoung. Jackson cares for Mark but he does not love him!" JB took a step closer looking Jinyoung straight in the eyes.

"You're- No Jackson he...-" Jinyoung struggled to reply to this sudden overload of reality.

"Ask him yourself. Jackson in his head is just living with Mark as roommates. All the while Mark thought they were more than that. Don't you see Jinyoung? You were wrong. And now of all people, Mark's the one paying for it." JB lowered his voice.