*Justin's P.O.V*
Me and Rae went to sleep at like 12 am. We cuddled up next to each other and I felt safe and warm.
*Justin's dream*
I was walking through a forest along with Josh, Matt, Tyler, Sidney, Cara and Amanda. We were all dressed in black and they were crying. I asked "Hey guys, where are we going?" and Matt answered "You will see soon Justin, but please be prepared" . I was confused but didn't know what to do so I just continued walking with them. Soon, we entered in a grave yard and I was so confused. Why are we here? We came to a grave and on a rock it was written:
Raegan Beast
Born 19 November 1994
Died 11 February 2018
When I read that, my whole world collapsed on me. I fell to my knees and screamed at the top of my lungs. Amanda sat near me and hugged me tight as I cried and screamed. "NNOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, THIS IS CAN'T BE HAPPENING, NOOOOOOO" I literally screamed at the top of my lungs. Behind me was a coffin. They opened the coffin and there was him. My boyfriend, my whole world, my only reason to live for, my soulmate, my husband. There was Raegan. I ran to the coffin and looked closelely at his lifeless body. His hair styled perfectly as he always styled it. His light freckles stood up more because of his pale skin. His perfect lips not looking as pink and plump as they used to be. His eyes closed. No, this can't be happening. My tears fell on his pale cheeks who once blushed because of me. The cheeks who I used to cup when I kissed him. I can't stand this...I quickly went and hugged him tight. I don't care if he is dead or if once I used to be scared of dead bodies. I don't care. This isn't only a dead body. This was and still is, and always be, my everything. "NO BABY, YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME, WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP" I yelled at the top of my lungs. The boys and their girlfriends were all looking at me, hugging Raegan's body for dear life, Josh was on his knees, crying his eyes out. Matt and Tyler tried to make me stop hugging him. "NO, GO AWAY, LEAVE ME ALONE. LET ME HUG HIM" I yelled and they stopped. I noticed Raegan was dressed in a black suit. I cried even harder and placed my head on his chest, hoping I'd feel his heartbeat, but instead all I felt was cold. I stroked his cheek and it was cold. He's lost the heat that he used to warm me up when I was cold. I heard a familiar sniff from behind me, one that didn't belong to the boys or the girls. One that sounded really familiar. I turned around and there I saw, Raegan. But how could Raegan be there if he is next to me. I stood up and I called his name. "Raegan" I yelled, but he shook his head and started crying. I ran through that direction, Matt and Tyler yelling after me but I ignored it. I ran to Raegan and he just looked at me. I started crying faster when I saw that Raegan started running away. I yelled and yelled after him to stop. I lost his sight when he started to run faster into the woods. All of a sudden I heard "He's not yours anymore". A voice that sounded rusty, a deep voice like it belonged to the devil. I turned around and looked everywhere, but there wasn't nobody. My head started to hurt and I saw, far away, my mom, dad and Raegan. All of them looking at me and crying.
*End of Justin's dream*
I stood up fast. I was shacking and crying. I looked and Raegan wasn't near me. I started crying harder and my breathing was picking up so much, I curled into a ball and cry helplessy. All of a sudden the door burst open and Raegan, Matt, Tyler and Josh came running. Raegan came to my side of the bed and kneeled down near me.
"Baby boy what's wrong" he asked.
I looked at him and quickly and hugged his neck for dear life. I was still breathing faster than ever. The boys were looking at me with concern. Raegan hugged me back, he picked me up and he sat down on the bed, placing me in his lap. He was shirtless and I touched him, I needed to feel his heat and to know that he's not cold. Next I looked at his eyes, they weren't closed. I looked at his lips, cheeks and everything else and they were just how I know them. I wrapped my arms around his neck snd digged my head in the crook of his neck as I cried again. I smelled him and it's the exact same scent as it always was. I cried happy tears, knowing he is still my Raegan. The one and only Raegan I've ever known. Not a cold, pale and lifeless Raegan. I hugged him tighter as I pictured the sight of him, dead, in a coffin in my mind. I never want to think of that. He rubbed my back and kissed my forehead, trying to comfort me.
"Baby I'm here, what's wrong?"
He asked in a soft voice, rubbing my back still. Matt, Josh and Tyler didn't left, they're now staying on the bed too.
I started to calm down and when I was better, I looked at Rae and kissed his soft, pink lips, they're exactly as I knew them. I pulled away and looked at him.
"I had a nightmare where I was walking to a grave yard with Matt, Tyler, Josh, Sidney, Cara and Amanda. I saw a rock where was your name, birthday and the day you died" a tear rolled down my cheek now, but I continued.
"I broke down crying when I saw the rock and, behind me was a coffin. Matt and Tyler opened it and there was y-you" I cried more now.
"You were wearing a black suit. It was like, it was you, but it wasn't you. That wasn't my Raegan. The only Raegan I knew. That Raegan was pale. His eyes were closed. His lips weren't plump or pink anymore, they were dry and chapped. Your cheeks weren't the same. You weren't warm anymore, you didn't smell the same" I stopped to cry a bit. Then I continued.
"I placed my head on your chest, but I couldn't hear your heartbeat. I hugged you tight, but you didn't hugged me back. I screamed at the top of my lungs, but you still didn't wake up, then I heard a sniff. I looked behind me and there was you and in that moment I was so confused. I was next to you, but another Raegan was at 10 meters away from me. I ran after you but you ran away and I stopped after a while. I heard a voice saying that you're not mine anymore, then I saw mom, dad and you, all staying and looking at me." I hugged him tighter.
"This was the worst nightmare I've ever had. I can't imagine you not beeing the same as I know you. I can't imagine you not beeing my Raegan. I can't imagine you dead"
I looked at him and he said.
"Baby, I'm here, I'm not dead. This was only a bad dream okay? I'm not leaving you. I promise" he said kissing my forehead. I closed my eyes and hugged his chest, listening to his heartbeat. His heat warming me up. I can never imagine him not being the same...being dead. I am really glad this was only a dream. He kissed my head non-stop.
"Okay bro, if everything's good now, we're gonna go. Take care of him" Josh said and they walked out.
Raegan placed me on the bed and he lied near me. I wrapped my small hands around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist. He pulled me as close as possible to him and I loved every second of it. I threw my right leg over his legs and he grabbed my leg, a little lower from my butt and pulled me closer by it. I kissed him soflty.
"I love you" I said.
"I love you more baby. I'm not leaving. You can go back to sleep, I'll be here when you wake up." he said soflty.
I kissed him one more time and closed my eyes, hoping I'd never have the same dream again.
