*Justin's P.O.V*
I woke up and started to panic a bit but I calmed down once I felt Raegan's grip on me. He was awake, now looking at me. I think he saw I was a bit tense.
"hey you okay there baby?" he asked.
I nodded and nuzzled my head in the crock of his neck. He's so warm. I was a still bit sad and shocked from my dream last night. I felt horrible. Rae grabbed my waist and pulled me on top of him. I think he can see I'm still thinking of last night. He grabbed my chin and pulled me down to him so I kissed him. We pulled apart and I sighed, then went to hug him. He hugged back but said:
"Baby look at me" and I did.
"Don't think of last night, it was all only in your mind. A bad dream. I'm not dead, you can see it. Don't be sad, you know I don't like it. I want you happy, and I'd do anything to make you happy again. That dream was only a thing, it won't happen. Now, please smile" he said, moving my lips forming a smile. I giggled a bit at how cute he is and shacked my head.
"You always know how to make me laugh only using your words. This is pure talent" I smiled.
"Well if you say so"
*Raegan's P.O.V*
I'm glad I did lighten up his mood a bit, but I know he's still a little upset. I can see it in his eyes. It's like I look right through them, even beyond. I can see how he feels, and I don't know how possibly that dream happened. I know he won't forget it soon, but I hope he does. He doesn't have only a piece of my heart. He owns my heart. He can do whatever he wants to it. I feel exactly what he feels. We stick together, like magnets. I'm glad he fell in love with me. We gave each other our hearts, so I have to keep his safe. I keep his safe through the wedding ring, that's the safest thing that won't break his heart. My mom always told me, make love with someone while wearing the safest thing, so I asked her, what's the safest thing? and she told me, the wedding ring. At that time, I was only a kid, what, 8 years old? I fell in love with the idea of love, not totally with the person. I couldn't keep a relationship, because I didn't know how and I couldn't keep it because I didn't find the right person. Justin is my only one. Now I know how to keep a relationship, because the taught me. Now I didn't fall in love with the idea of love, but with the person, and I love Justin with my whole life. I want to keep him safe, forever. Because he isn't safe, I'm not either. For example, that time Conner kidnapped him. I really didn't know what to do. I was thinking only negative thoughts and it wasn't helping at all. When I found out Conner raped him, it broke me. I was feeling awful, mad and really upset at the same time and I could literally do everything that came to my mind. But I thought first about Justin, and the consequences. When I'm sad, I always feel the need to drink or get drugs, but at that time I didn't do either and I am going to tell you why. If I got drunk or high, I won't be able to get to Justin sooner, and he needed me. It's like he needs me and I don't care, but I cared. I knew I needed to get to him as soon as possible so I used all my energy to think of plans and ways to get there and that was when I knew I would do absolutely anything for him. He is literally everything I have. Now don't tell me I have money, cars, friends or a place to stay....or shit like that. In my world there is only Justin. He is my home, my safe place and there's no one like him, no one. I didn't given much thought about love, till I saw him first, walking down the street to his house. You may ask me, why didn't I get him then, and I waited 2 more years? I didn't get him then because he was only a child, what, 14 years? He wasn't even a full teenager. From the first second I saw him, I knew there was something up with him that made me want him so bad. I knew I loved him. But I couldn't get him, and not because I was scared or I didn't have anyone to help me, but because I wanted him to spend as much time with him family as he can. I wanted him to live his life, but I couldn't resist no more. I wanted to get him even later, but I couldn't wait, it was consuming me. In the meantime, I found out things about him. Who are his parents, if he has any siblings, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, what is he doing, what school he is going to, his age, his birthday, his hobbies, the things he likes, everything. I was even preparing myself for when I get him because you know, I have ADHD. I'm impulsive, angry and all that staff, you know. I needed to control myself. I needed to learn how to stay calm and positive. I needed to start drinking my pills, even if I hated to, I did it for him. I couldn't stand to scare him or hit him or something. I'd hate myself if I did that, like I'd never forgive myself. I love him, more than anything. I still can't believe we are married. I still can't believe that he loves me. But I know for sure that I loved him from the first day I saw him. I knew he was mine, and I knew I was his. I knew I didn't belong to anyone than him and I'm glad he accepted me and was there for me when I needed him. I love him.
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Hiya numb nuts, it's not over yet, sorry if I made it look like it =)))))))))) new chapter tomorrow or Sunday? Idk.
