9 Reasons Why || Twice

Chapter One

Jihyo's P.O.V

"You are the weirdest person I know!" Tzuyu said as she laughed along with the rest after hearing Momo's stupid joke. "You know like 12 people, That isn't saying anything." Dahyun chimed in.

Tzuyu playfully hit her arm as I played with my food.

It was noon. The girls were all having a good time and I wasn't. But that's how it always is. Their happy and I'm not. What's new?

"Jihyo?"

I looked over to see Sana, Who was sitting right next to me, Look concerned. "Are you okay? Is something wrong?"

Everything, I'm a mess. I don't want to live anymore. I hate myself. No one loves me. My life is terrible. My family has so many problems. Everyone hates me. I'm not okay. I'm ready to die today.

"Yeah I'm fine."

Lying like that is a norm for me. They ask how I am, I tell them I'm fine, Life goes back to normal. I just wish I could say something to someone. But no one would understand. They would just tell me to be happy.

I try to happy. But under all those smiles, Are tears and sadness. They don't know I spend my nights crying in the janitors closet.

She nodded and went back to eating. I continued to stare at my food for a few more minutes until I excused myself.

I got up from the table, They all noticed when I was in the doorway. "Where ya going?" Chaeyoung said with food stuffed in her mouth.

"Uh, Bathroom."

Before I left I had to say one last thing to them. My last words ever.

"I love you guys."

They all looked up a little confused. "We love you too Jihyo." Nayeon told me. I have them a soft smile and then left. Here we go.

I got to the bathroom, Tears in my eyes. I closed the door and made myself a bath. I set the letter on the sink counter, Knowing they would find it there. I got into the bath. I didn't get undressed though, I don't want them to find me naked.

It was quiet. Too quiet. My eyes roamed the bathtub looking for something sharpe. And lucky for me, Mina's razor was sitting near me.

I reached for it with a nervous hand. I rolled up my sleeves, Revealing my smooth skin. No cuts. But soon there will be some.

I took a deep breath before sliding the razor down my skin. I screamed softly in pain, Looking at the blood flowing from my left wrist. I started to bawl my eyes out.

I did the same thing to my right wrist. The blood didn't make me uneasy, The thought that I would soon be dead.

I rested my back against the tub, Breathing heavily and quickly. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I thought of everything. It hurt, But I've been hurt worse. This is nothing for me.

The tapes were all ready. I placed them in my bandmates rooms, Knowing they would find them.

I could my eyes getting heavy, My heart slowing down, Tears stopping. I closed my eyes and let everything happen. This was it. All my pain will be gone.

I feel bad knowing my closest friend will find me like this. But this is what it came too. Haters calling me the worst names, My family in a war with each other, People making crude jokes about me. I done with it.

I close my eyes for the last time. And I take my last breath.

Goodbye.

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