8 - If It's Meant To Be

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I spent the day in Yoongi's arms catching up on our lives and all the love and kisses we missed.  I feel no bitterness when I'm with him.   I could forgive him anything cause I can't get enough of him. I stared at him as he told me about his classes and how hard it was for him to be far from home and from me.  I missed his sweet voice, how he spoke with his hands, and the way he talks with his expressive little face.  It was the cutest thing how he talked in pout.  His darling lips looked so kissable.  I just sat there smiling like an idiot enjoying every moment. 

Yoongi gets up to show me the things he has been able to buy and proudly shows me how he fixed up his dorm. My heart feels full when I see a picture of me on his desk. How many times has he looked at it and thought about me?

"What did you tell your roommate about me?" I ask putting the frame down.

He grins shyly at me and says. "I told him you are my girlfriend, my everything. Poor guy has to listen to how much I miss you every day."

"Oh." I say blushing and feeling blessed.

"Let's take a picture together. He must think I made you up." Yoongi says.

"I better go," I say

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"I better go," I say.

Yoongi hugs me with a pout, "I'm going to miss you."

"Me too, sweetheart!"

I tear myself away, finally heading back to my lonely apartment. By the time I get there, it's almost dark. Nobody is home so I start to search to see if I find Yoongi's letters. I really don't think Tae would keep them, but just in case. I feel guilty looking through his things, then I spot a shoe box all the way in the back of the closet. When I opened it, it's not at all what I expected. Instead of Yoongi's letters, the box is filled with letters and cards thathad sent Tae while he was away from home during training days. There were ticket stubs and even a note I had left in his locker with the origami heart I made him on Valentine's day.

Oh Tae, why are you so sentimental? I felt bad looking at this stuff wondering how much I had hurt him with my love for Yoongi

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Oh Tae, why are you so sentimental? I felt bad looking at this stuff wondering how much I had hurt him with my love for Yoongi. Reading my own letters telling him how much I love him makes me so sad. I feel broken inside.  I don't deserve his love.  At the bottom of the box, I find a crumpled letter addressed to me.  My heart stops and my hands shake. I can't believe it.

There is no doubt now it was Tae that hid the letters

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There is no doubt now it was Tae that hid the letters. He must have resented Yoongi and had meant to throw it away. I wondered what made him keep it. To me, it would feel like a stab in the heart every time I saw it.

 To me, it would feel like a stab in the heart every time I saw it

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My heart felt like a crumpled piece of paper, torn and mangled.  I wish I could find a way to mend his heart. Sitting on the carpeted floor I hugged my knees. I wanted to hug him and take the hurt away.  I cried for him that night.  Taehyung deserved a better wife.

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