so,, um, hi, baby! wow idk how to start this akjhsgd i'm scared )): if i mess something up, i hope you still understand what it is that i'm trying to get across. <33
we say this a lot to each other, but i mean it wholeheartedly when i say, i love you. i love you a lot )): and holy shit you mean so much to me. like,, you don't even understand how much i appreciate you being here, not just for me, but being here and still alive. because that makes you so so strong baby. you've made it through up until now, and i'm so, so proud of you.
every single day, even struggling on your own, you manage to make my days so much brighter. i hope you know that your concern and care extends beyond than bringing a smile to my face. i hope you know that with every single word we share, i feel this goodness inside. and i'm so glad to have you here.
you're so sweet and loving. you want to make sure everyone's feeling alright and more than alright. you want everyone to feel accepted and loved, and so many people adore you for that and more. i love you. i love all of you. whatever blemishes you have, whatever emotions paint your soul, you are one of the most beautiful human beings i have ever met.
please, even when you feel down about yourself, remember that your faults shouldn't be something you should be ashamed of. it's ok to feel insecure about ourselves. it's ok to want someone there for us. it's ok to be sensitive or feel miserable at times. but your imperfections are there to balance you out with the favorable things. because no one's truly good or bad, and it's alright to be like that. if you want to change some things about yourself, of course, go ahead, baby. but don't feel upset about the blemishes you have because you'll always be someone who i'd appreciate.
so when cloudy skies blur your days, and you feel as if you can't sleep at night, please, don't worry. you have another day to get up again. you have the night to recover, so, love, close your eyes and slowly,, breathe. think of all the nice things; me cuddling you. <3 and i hope you'll remember that, to me, you are the softest lantern in the dark. thank you for guiding me and illuminating my night. thank you for showing me the beauty of everything, even if someday, we'll leave each other.
To: accidist
From: the bub who hopes you'll be able to sleep well at night again
