I take revenge on myself,
My body screams at me for my neglect.
Each morning you see me walk in with a smile,
It's a lie.
I'm drowning myself,
I'm finding new ways to make myself suffer,
It's the best I've felt in months.
I remember who I was,
Vaguely an image surfaces,
I smiled and laughed.
He was with me,
His smile lighting up my whole life,
But it was destroyed just as fast.
My world was over in a matter of minutes,
And now as lunch ticks on,
No food enters my body.
I feel satisfied.
I will damage my body,
Just like he damaged my soul.
