Nick’s POV
“Ugh, why am I feeling this way? I’ve known her for years but why is my heart beating so fast at the sight of her? Why am I going crazy because of her? Stop it, Nick. You cannot fall for her.” I said to myself.
I don’t know what is happening to me now. I usually don’t fall for girls easily. But there’s something unique and special about Josephine that stands out. She’s got that one thing that many girls do not have. But, I’ve known her since I was 4 years old and she’s like an older sister and a best friend to me. We share happy and embarrassing moments together. She was the one who told me not to give up in dancing. She inspired me to follow my dreams and believe that I can do anything I want. She was the one who trusted me and made me believe in myself. I cannot describe how grateful I am to meet her and have her in my life. I always talk to her about stuff that I do not talk to with my parents.
But…… but……. I’m really confused. The best buddy of my childhood has now become the girl of my dreams. Josephine is beautiful, caring, kind, funny and she’s everything I look for in a girl. She has matured to become a gracious lady. One that catches my eye. Yes, I know it’s weird to fall for my best friend but…. that’s what happening right now. And I’m controlling myself to stop falling for her. “She’s just my best friend.” I always keep telling myself.
During dinner, she will always sit beside me and sometimes I feel nervous. I will always be careful of what I say and my every move. I’m just too afraid that I’ll do something stupid which will make her hate me.
Nobody knows about my secret crush, not even Tristan or Julian. I feel so miserable because I cannot share this secret with anyone. I don’t know what to do in this situation. The reason I didn’t tell Josephine my real feelings is because I’m afraid she will reject me. I’m afraid she will never be by my side again, as an older sister and a best friend. I’m afraid she will ignore me completely. I’m afraid of reality.
Also, I am 1 year younger than Josephine. I don’t know if she dates younger guys. Well, I know age is just a number but Josephine might have her preferences.
Every now and then, the picture of Josephine will pop into my head. Her beautiful eyes, brown hair, fine nose, chubby cheeks and thin lips will be stuck in my head. Her adorable laugh will always ring in my ears and I love the way she walks, talks, dances and smiles. I’ve been texting her lately too, but not in a flirty way. We text the way we always do, like best friends and siblings. I will always smile when my phone vibrates and I see that I received a text from her. I also like it when she replies fast. She does not let me wait anxiously for her reply. We always joke around when texting and I really like it. No, I love it.
