his bad girl | ethan dolan

chapter five

faith's pov.
(next day)

i stared out the car window, my head leaned against the glass. i watched as the houses, cars, and people passed by. i shut my eyes, taking in life. just taking in everything. i shouldn't have run away, but what else was i supposed to do? live with my abusive mother? no chance.

my mind went to think about ethan. i've been thinking about him way more than before, i don't know why. any little thing i do just leads back to ethan.

the car came to a stop in front of a cute little coffee shop. my aunt and i got out the car and walked inside. there was only a few people, an old couple and a girl that looked to be in her thirties.

"go sit, i'll order." my aunt said with a smile.

i nodded in response and sat in the corner of the shop next to a window. i pulled out my phone to distract myself and keep me busy while i wait. i checked my texts, i didn't have one from ethan.

i bit my lip as i reread his previous text. i want to text him but i'm scared. what would he say? would he even answer? would he ignore me like i did to him?

i shook my head and put my phone back in my pocket, guilt immediately building up inside me. i put my face in my hands and swallow the lump in my throat. it's a new day, i can't cry.

who am i kidding? i'll probably cry when i'm not in public.

i felt my phone buzz in my pocket. a part of me hoped it was ethan, i pull out my phone and read the text. it was sofia, she was asking if i wanted to hang out with her today.

"here you go, a small coffee." my aunt smiled as she set the coffee in front of me.

i thankfully smile at her and take a sip of my coffee. she sits down and takes a sip of her tea.

"um, you know that girl i met at the christmas party yesterday?" i ask.

"mhm, sofia is her name right?" she asked.

i nod, "yeah, she asked if i could hang out with her today. is that okay?"

"of course it is, you need friends." she smiled.

"thanks." i smiled and texted sofia back telling her i could meet her at twelve.

after we finished our drinks we left and drove back home. i went to my room and looked for something to change into. i was wearing sweatpants and a hoodie because all we were doing was getting coffee, i didn't feel like getting dressed.

i picked out a yellow hoodie and black jeans. i folded them and put them on my bed, it was 9:00 so i had time to take a shower. i gather up my towel, shampoo/conditioner, and soap.

i took a forty minute warm shower. it felt amazing, probably one of the best showers i've ever had. after i was done i changed into my clothes, i brushed my hair and put on deodorant and powder.

i go back to my room and plop down on my bed. i grab my phone and check if i have a text back from sofia.

sofi💕:
kk i'll pick you up,
whats your address?

i sent her the address to my aunt's house. it felt good to have found someone in this place, i thought i'd be lonely the whole time and only talk to my aunt.

i exit sofia's contact and tap on ethans. i sighed, should i? i don't want to risk anything. what would i even say?

ethan, i can't go back no matter how much i want to. theres nowhere for me to go. i'm so sorry.

i shook my head. i went to delete the message but my finger slipped causing me to accidentally send it.

"no, oh my god!" i shouted, standing on my bed as i stared at the screen with wide eyes. "stupid idiot!" i said to myself.

my heart was racing. i was nervous, scared, and especially angry at myself for being so stupid. this is why we don't type a text we know we wont send, because we'll just end up sending it by accident!

"what happened?! are you okay?" my door swung open and my aunt rushed in.

"uh, y-yeah, i saw a spider but i lost it." i lied and bit down on my lip, hoping she'd believe me.

she sighed, "jesus christ, seriously?! you really scared me, faith. get off the bed, you're going to hit your head on the ceiling." she warned and shook her head.

she left the room and closed the door behind her. i get off the bed and pace back and forth, i don't know what i'm supposed to do. i can't even delete the text. fuck, what the hell is wrong with me?

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this sucks so badly oh my goddd !!
this is supposed to be a filler chapter and also a sign to show that i am alive and still working on this book. my parents have become more strict with my phone so i'm sorry about that. i'll try to get better with writing and making longer better chapters...love you guys ❤️