I sat down nervously at a table, looking nervously at the boy in front of me.
The café was nice and all, with themed lights and tables that were designed to look like moons. The walls were painted to look like twilight and buds of stars arose from the ceiling. But there was no way I could focus on that while Kim fucking Taehyung sat in front of me.
And he was about (awkwardly) ask me why I was spying on him. What was I supposed to say?
"Oh, I love you so that's why I was creepily staring at you. Marry me?"
"OMG! Of course!"
(KISS)
I scoffed at my small daydream before noticing the waiter come over.
"Hello! I'm Sejun and I'll be your waiter for today? What would you like to order?" the boy said perkily, smiling sunnily at both of us.
I managed a tiny grin back and ordered a Shaken Lemonade Infused with Strawberry Concentrate and one cookie.
Taehyung ordered 3 lemon and sugar cookies and a White Grape Acai Refresher. The waiter nodded and went off.
He looked at me awkwardly for the first time. His mouth was set but his eyes were happy and full of light.
"So, um, the reason I wanted to talk to you was because, well-" Taehyung started uncomfortably.
"Was because you caught me staring at you through my window and you want to ask why and confirm that I'm not a huge pervert," I finished for him, attempting to break the ice.
Taehyung laughed. Carefree and honest, ringing through the air, breaking through the thick wall of tension.
"Well, you could say that. But, I don't think you're a huge pervert," he smirked mischievously, "Unless you want to oppose that?"
"No!" I said, raising my voice slightly. People turned to look at me and I blushed, sinking down in my seat.
"Can I ask why, then?" Taehyung asked hopefully, eyes bright and full of curiosity. I was silent for a second. I looked at his face, beautiful and patiently awaiting an answer. I opened my mouth to speak but-
"Here are your orders!" Sejun interrupted, placing our drinks and cookies on the table, "Enjoy!" he said cheerily before walking away.
Taehyung thanked him and turned back to me, still expecting.
"I-," I paused, thinking over what to say. I honestly couldn't think of an excuse and I didn't want to lie in front of my crush's face. I sipped my drink.
"Iloveyou," I blurted out quickly, staring at my solitary cookie like my life depended on it.
"Pardon?" Taehyung said, confusion etched on his beautiful face.
"I love you," I repeated, raising my eyes to his. It was too late to turn back. I registered the shock in his eyes. Of course. Of course. I'm so stupid.
"I know you're probably straight and you're just so sunny and perfect and everything and I'm just a piece of trash," I started ranting, the atmosphere changing drastically from cheerful to surprised and tense, "who has panic attacks in washrooms-"
I looked at him. I saw that he realized that's what happened in the washroom and his expression became more and more shocked and his mouth dropped more and more-
I kept going even though every part of me screamed at me to stop. My mouth and my mind ran against me, spilling my secrets in front of him.
"-because that's another shitty part about me. Ever since you moved in you've been this perfect angel and I've been too scared to go up to you!" I don't why, but I started to yell, causing others to look at me, "I guess watching you from aways somehow made me feel closer to you! I don't know!"
I pushed back against the table, my chair screeching loudly against the ground. If people hadn't been watching then, they were definitely watching now.
"My heart beats ten times faster when I'm around you! My jealousy rips me inside out!" I confessed and threw my hands up into the air, "I can't stay normal around you! I'm weird, I'm crazy, I'm stupid. I'm a worthless piece of fucking shit!" My voice cracked on the last sentence, making everything so much more dramatic than it already was.
I realized I was crying. I looked at Taehyung's face and flinched. Everything was just pity, shock, and plain disappointment. His eyes were wide and had lost their sparkle.
I lowered my voice just enough for him to hear.
"I'm sorry for wasting your time," I said softly, refusing to look at his eyes. I turned on my heel and walked out, leaving Taehyung and lots of shocked bystanders in my space dust.
This was not how I imagined a crush for almost two years to end.
I heard footsteps running behind me and Taehyung's hand on my arm.
"Jungkoo-" he started.
I shrugged his hand off and kept on walking, my eyes focused on my shoes.
"You don't need to pity me," I muttered, "You can just forget about me. I'm not important."
I started walking a little faster. Taehyung grunted something I couldn't hear and caught up with me. He grabbed my arms from behind and spun me around.
I looked at him, suddenly vulnerable. This was a different Taehyung, not the happy one I knew, but a serious and honest one. I shivered.
"You are not shit. You are not trash," he growled at me, looking intensely into my eyes, "You are important. Maybe not to some people but you are to me. I could never forget you. You may be crazy and weird but I'm crazier and weirder. If your heart beats ten times faster, mine must beat 100 times faster."
I opened and closed my mouth, unsure if this was a prank.
"I thought you didn't like me. You ignored me all the time and your curtains were always pulled close. You never talked or looked at me. I spent hours trying to figure out what had gone wrong, replaying that dinner over and over in my head," he continued, still gripping me tightly.
I nodded weakly and gulped, still not believing this was happening.
"At lunch and in class, I would look steal glances whenever I could because you're so goddamn cute. You honestly don't eat enough, though. But when you do eat, you look so adorable and innocent. I just want to cuddle and snuggle you forever. I guess, the whole reason for this long ass speech was because-"
"I love you, too." we said together, my eyes hopeful and eager.
I leaned forward and hugged him tightly, burying my nose in his neck.
Happy tears gently trailed down my cheeks and onto his shirt.
I pulled away and stared at his neck, sniffling. Taehyung leaned close, our foreheads and noses touching. I slowly raised my eyes to his mocha eyes and he kissed me.
It was everything. A burst of passion, sparkles, and love. It was fresh and new and there was a spark between us. He pulled me against him tighter, winding his hands in my hair. I flushed, a fire traveling up and down my neck. A moan escaped my mouth as he gently bit my bottom lip. Taehyung chuckled huskily.
It felt like fireworks. Everything was perfect.
We finally broke apart, gasping for air. I smiled, truly, for the first time.
I heard loud clapping and turned my head to see the people from the cafe whooping and cheering.
I blushed furiously and hid behind Taehyung and buried my face into his shoulder.
Taehyung flashed his dazzling smile at them, "Thank you!"
"I SHIP IT!" a woman yelled. A series of wolf whistles and clapping followed it, agreeing.
Taehyung waved goodbye and turned around to go home. In the spur of the moment, I turned around and pressed both hands to my mouth and then faced the palms toward the small crowd, blowing them a kiss. Then I turned to Taehyung and jumped on his back.
He ran home with me on his back and cheering following our departure.
