Please not this is not anyone's fault. I know I'm an ass because I'm writing this and it'll probably make people feel bad, but it's not the intention. This is just how I am and I can't change that, unfortunately.
I have amazing friends, people who will comfort me, people who are there when I need them. But sometimes anxiety gets the best of me and I wonder if they actually consider me a friend. My mom says I don't have, or, won't make, any friends because of "how i am" so that doesn't really help me.
But lately, I've been noticing people actually making excuses to not hang out with me. And then proceeds to hang out with someone else?
I don't want lose any friends over this because I love all of them so much, but I can't help but wonder how much of an ass I really am.
I know I'm clingy and annoying and ugly and overall just a terrible person to be around, but if someone really doesn't want to hang out with me I wish they'd just say it. It hurts, but not as bad as when people go out of their way to not hang out with me
Idk anxiety has really been taking over and I've started to completely hate when weekends come around because I'm always left out of things and get to watch my friends have fun.
I never like getting on this topic but I've started to do harmful things again and I need help
