I showered, replaying my sobbing session with SteveO. I just told him everything I had been bottling up for the past three years. And it felt great. To get Aaron out of my system, to tell someone about the horrible things he did to me. Whatever was haunting me was backin away now, slowly but surely. Was I ready to fall carelessy into Knoxville's arms? Hell no. But at least my thoughts and feelings were clearer. I still didn't know much, but I was starting to accept that I had definite feelings for Knoxville. I still didn't want to, but I couldn't deny what was meant to be. Talking to SteveO made me realize that one of it was my fault, that the only thing that was my fault was forgiving him. But that's not why I couldn't trust myself. I knew that falling for Knoxville would mean thinking with my heart and not my head, and that would end up badly. Anything could happen. I could say anything, do anything, think anything, absolutely anything was possible. I knew from experience how much love could skew my perception of situtions, and I didn't want to stumble blindly through life again. But maybe Knoxville would hold my hand and lead me, like the other night..
I got dressed in my pink and black checkerboard flannel shirt, and my black jean shorts with cute little rips on them, not even bothering to wear another shirt under it. It was warm again, but I didn't care. Screw weather. I descended the staircase, tying my hair into a messy bun on the back of my head. Most girls wore obnoxiously large buns on the top of their heads, but not me. I entered the kitchen as the boys finished butting the groceries away. An adorable smile spread across Knoxville's face when he saw me.
"We got two more boxes of Oreos." He informed me, making me smile.
Muscular arms wrapped around themselves protectively around my waist and I jumped. SteveO chuckled, not letting go.
"Sorry, did I scare you?" I turned my head to the around and looked in his eyes, sticking my tongue out at him. He just smirked. "How are you?" He asked, loosening his grip. But I knew what he really meant.
"I'm good." I replied with a firm smile. He smiled back and I nodded slightly. He let go and looked at Johnny. I followed his gaze to see Johnny with a curious expression on his face, but quickly looking away. A light pink rose to his cheeks and a fluttery sensation entered my heart as I sighed slightly. He truly was too cute. Screw Aaron.I thought, walking over to Johnny. Screw the walls he built around me.
He was scouring the newly filled fridge, so his back was to me, and before I knew what I was doing, my heart made me wrap my arms around his waist, and rest my head on his shoulder.
"Good morning." I said softly. He turned around, looking pleasantly caught off guard.
"Actually, it's the afternoon." He corrected me with a smile. I smiled back at him, and out of the corner of my eye I saw SteveO smiling. Well we weren't we a happy bunch today? Bam looked at us curiously. SteveO took someone's car keys and ran upstairs. What was that boy up to now? I wondered with a small grin.
"Haley, are you wearing pants, baby." Chris asked, not noticing anything between me and the cute little Tennessee boy. Once again, my shirt was a longer than my shorts. What? I like it that way. I let go of Johnny and lifted up my shirt to reveal the shorts I was wearing underneath. With that I tucked my shirt into my shorts, going for the 'cowgirl' look.
"Barley." Novak muttered as he entered the kitchen, searching for something. Probably his car keys. SteveO, what an asshole. But I do have to admit, those shorts were pretty small.
"Sorry Father." I replied in a sarcastically sweet voice, batting my eyelashes innocently. He playfully wiggled his finger at me in response, making me laugh again.
"Ever think maybe you should wear pants long enough to see?" Chris suggested jokingly. I put on a long thinking face for a couple of seconds.
"Nope!" I concluded with a smile. He laughed lightly and rolled his eyes. I felt like I wasn't that close to Chris, which I wanted to change. Novak too.
