4 years, 6 months, 2 days

Chapter 6- For tonight you're only here to know

"I never had a mother. I mean, she's alive but she's never there for me. When she's home, she's either drunk or on the phone with one of her boyfriends. I'm left to deal with everything by myself" I said looking down.

"What about your father?" he asked looking at me.

"He died when I was 10. That made my mother the way she is now" I said almost crying again.

"I'm really sorry" he said shaking his head.

"It's not hard, being on your own. Once you get used to it, it's normal. Sometimes I feel lonely and cry but I manage to pull myself back together and I continue" I said smiling weakly.

"Alone" he said knotting his eyebrows.

I nodded and looked away. The innocence of his look at that moment was unbearable.

"You're not alone, whenever you need me, I'll be here" he said looking at me.

I stood up and hugged him. My hands were around his neck and his were around my waist. He made me feel so secure. All doubts were gone, down the drain.

"Do you need anything?" he asked caressing my cheek.

"Sing to me" I said pleadingly.

"Seriously?" he asked.

"Yes, please, sing to me" I repeated.

He helped me to lie down and laid next to me.

"Okay, here it goes" he said clearing his throat.

He picked Snow Patrol. In my arms.

Tell me something that I know

Just something that I understand

I need to taste the warming glow

Of your medicating hands

I know I'm ready for your love

I just don't understand it

There is a silent pact of trust

That I never could admit

That I never could

So now I'm telling you the reason I'm all messed up

Just have to look me in the eyes and I fall apart

Please let me hold you 'til I know we are both through this

I couldn't lead another day without you here in my arms

You look so fragile I could break

But I try to hold myself

Together for the both of us

But in truth I'm just as scared

I just wanna watch you sleep

As you lie here beside me

So close your eyes I'll guard the door

And when you wake you'll wake with me

And when you wake you'll

So now I'm telling you the reason I'm all messed up

Just have to look me in the eyes and I fall apart

Please let me hold you 'til I know we are both through this

I couldn't lead another day without you here in my arms