4 years, 6 months, 2 days

Chapter 8- What do you go home to?

"Let's celebrate" Jack yelled.

"Just a second, guys" that man I saw earlier, the judge was approaching us and smiling.

"I need to talk to Johnny" he said grabbing his shoulder.

They moved away from us and he started telling him something. I was confused. They are a band, Johnny is not alone in this. They should be talking about their career too. So, they were talking and came back 5 minutes later. I moved away from Johnny as he tried to grab my hand.

"So, guys, I just told Johnny, we'll be in touch" he said and stopped by my side.

"You must be Leny" he observed me smiling.

"I am" I said coldly.

"You are as beautiful as Johnny said" he winked at Johnny.

"Am I supposed to melt down now?" I asked sarcastically.

Jack and the guys were laughing while Johnny was narrowing his eyes at me.

"I like feisty girls. Chris Camden" he said smiling and reaching his hand.

"I couldn't care less" I said and turned away.

As I was trying to find Marni and Matt I ran into Marie.

"Where is John?" she asked killing me with her look.

"You are the last person I need right now. You have a nose for money. Follow the trace and you won't miss him" I said and left.

I found Marni and asked her if she can drive me home.

"What happened?" she asked worried.

"Please, I don't feel like explaining" I said taking a deep breath.

She nodded and lead me to her car.

"Leny!" I heard a familiar voice.

Johnny was upset. I could tell.

"What the hell?" he growled.

"Leave me alone" I said as calm as I could.

"You must be crazy if you think I'll let you leave after this" he said threatening.

"Move!" I said pushing him away.

He grabbed my wrists and showed Marni she can leave.

"What is it now, Leny?" he asked looking in my eyes.

"You alone are not Lithium! You are a singer! As far as I know, you need those guys to play with you! Right? Why were you talking to that ass alone?" I asked accusing.

"I was just talking to him! I don't want a solo career! Stop it, Leny!"

"I won't! I don't want to be with someone who thinks of no one but himself" I said shaking my head and walking away.

"I can't think of myself, even if I wanted!" he yelled.

I didn't let him stop me and kept on walking. Suddenly, I felt someone's hands around my waist and a breath on my neck.

"I'm too busy thinking about you" he whispered.

"Why did you let him talk to me like that?" I asked sadly.

"He said you're beautiful, that's true" he said calmly.

"He went over the line with the other comment but I told him that when you left."

I turned around and faced him.

"Leny, I'm not what you think I am, I won't forget my friends if my career works out. And I certainly won't forget you" he said hugging me.

I let it take me over again. His secure hands, soothing breaths and the smell of apples. I got lost once again.

"Come on, let's celebrate" he said smiling.

"No, I don't feel like drinking" I said moving away.

"Just you and me, okay? You and me, Leny, from now on" he said quietly.

I nodded and he kissed me. How did we get to this? How does a guy like Johnny fall in love with a girl like me? We are so different. Too different. I won't realize that for the next 3 years.

I woke up next to him the next morning. He seemed so calm. I like him, I fell for him, bad. There is no going back, taking back anymore. We are in, way deep in.

I sighed and looked at his face. His nose was moving up and down and his eyes were shut. I really like him. He opened his eyes.

"Did I do something wrong again?" he asked raising his hands.

"No, I'm just looking at you" I said honestly.

"Like what you see?" he asked playfully.

"Always" I said laughing.

"Well, I like what I see too" he said leaning forward.

I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror. Johnny was just sitting, still looking confused. What am I supposed to do now? I turned around to face him.

"I have to go, home I guess, I mean if I can call it that, home" I said looking out the window.

He stood up and walked to me.

"You will always have a home here. A home, a shelter, a place to escape to, whatever you want to call it."

I turned away and walked out.

This is getting way too complicated for me. I can't control my feelings anymore. I don't hold all the strings in my hands and that is scaring the shit out of me. What if I end up with a broken heart? What if this ends up as soon as I get attached to him?