4 years, 6 months, 2 days

Chapter 4- A kiss to build a dream on

"What the fuck happened?! Did he do something to you?!" Marni yelled as soon as I sat in the car.

"He tried to kiss me" I said sniffing.

She hit her forehead and leaned on the steering wheel.

"You don't say! He tried to kiss you while you were on a date?! That bastard!" she yelled faking to be outraged.

"Shut up okay? I don't like him, okay? I don't want to see him ever again, okay?" I wiped tears and sunk into the seat.

She started the engine and we drove off.

"Can I say what I think?" she asked tapping the wheel.

"If you don't get all sarcastic on me" I said narrowing my eyes.

"I think you like him, I think you fell bad for him. You like his letters and you like all the attention he's giving you but that's also scaring the shit out of you. You're used to dreaming of perfect love in your little cocoon and when that perfect love is happening, you're running away. That's what I think" she said seriously, shaking her head.

She's right.

"You couldn't be more wrong" I yelled.

She smiled.

"I know you, Leny, I know your soul. You will never admitt it but you like Johnny boy" she said smiling.

I turned away and watched the trees pass us by. My life was passing me by just like those trees. I need to do something about that. But I know myself, I'll just wait. Wait for a miracle to happen. 

November 2008.

I haven't seen Johnny since that date when I ran away like he was trying to rape me. It's better that way. Matt and Marni are spending more and more time together. The are going to the movies, dinners, walks together but they are still claiming they're not a couple and I.. I'm still alone, dreaming of my true love.

I was going to buy something to cook for tonight, Marni and Matt are coming over and we'll watch a movie. I entered the store and picked some meat, vegetables and rice. I got out carrying the bag and my phone rang. I was trying to get it out of the purse and didn't watch where I was going. I banged against someone's chest and fell. 

"Shit" I swore getting up.

"I'm sorry, I didn't see you" he said taking my hand.

Wait, I know that voice. I looked up. Johnny's dark blue eyes were staring at me.

Johnny..

"I'm fine" I stood up taking my hand back.

I started walking when I heard him again.

"I miss you" he said quietly.

I turned around and he was looking at me. He seemed lost. I know I was lost. Maybe Marni was right after all. Maybe I do like him.

"Why didn't you write me a letter then? Or called or whatever?" I asked accusing.

"I thought you didn't want me to" he said looking away.

"Just admit it, you didn't think of me once. You saw me now and got all worked up, you said you won't give up but you did" I said narrowing my eyes.

"I wrote you a song" he said.

"What?" I asked surprised.

"I did miss you so I wrote you a song. Lithium is entering a band contest with your song. It's called Leny Q."