Garden of Madness

Telling him

Sitting alone your thoughts eating away at you tell him don't tell him, will he rage or will he weep so many thoughts to swarm your mind but what to say.... what to do.......

(Sans POV)

After working I decided to find my sweet flower, I don't like ignoring her for work but I have a job to do... "I wonder where she is...." I mutter as Paps comes forward to me. "She's in the library crying...." He spoke in his usual bored tone, however when my love is sad that makes me worry. Is she hurt? Is she upset about being stuck here? Does she hate me??? So many thoughts rushed through my mind as I hurry to the library. When I entered I saw her holding a letter and softly sobbing as she held the letter to her chest.

"Liebe?" I spoke softly causing her to look up and quickly try to wipe the tears away. I came over and pulled out a handkerchief to assist in wiping the tears from her eyes. She sniffles slightly as I look at her sorrow filled eyes. "What's the matter my beautiful rose?" I asked her gently hoping not to start the water works once again. She looked at me and whimpers softly before speaking. "D-did you know anything else about your wife?" She asked me as I tilt my head in confusion. "What do you mean?" I asked extremely worried and confused why my beautiful flower was being so cryptic.

That was when she timidly handed me the letter she held. I take it and began to read slowly, it was my old beloveds handwriting. I was enthralled with hearing her sweet voice play through my mind til I stopped at the one sentence. She..... She was pregnant.... I could feel the tears begin to fall as I grip the letter tight. Again......it happened again..... I couldn't help but scream in pain. I lost another child to a cruel man! I loose everything! Why won't this world let me be happy?! Why can't i....why.... I weap and held my head in pain as all the happy memories came flooding back into my mind.

My soul aches as cried my soul out, pain and I can never be to far apart on the cruel world. I just want happiness..... I just want a family.... I.... I began to throw up blood, my soul was exerted to much. I look up to see my loves face contorted to fear and worry. I slowly reached a hand out to her as more blood dripped down my eyes and mouth, she was getting fuzzy. Was she fading just like the rest of Them? I can never tell.... all I can tell is my world is nothing but darkness.....