Fire Away (Ziall Horlik) AU

Chapter 17

Zayn's POV

I listened as Harry went on about his horrible fight with louis. He told me that he saw love bites in his neck they haven't had sex in a while and they started arguing. Louis left because he couldn't take Harry's 'jealous ass' anymore. Louis came back with even more love bites. That's all he told me so far. Or I just completely zoned out into my own world of Niall.

That world I was in was broken by Liam's name coming up.

"What did you say?" I asked trying to see why he said his name. "I saw Liam and Louis last night. Where was all used to hang out, by the school." He told me. Now I know why Liam was here. He came back for Louis, not me. Liam was nothing but trouble. I don't know he always does this. Why did Louis do this to Harry?

Harry had tears streaming down his face. I saw how much this hurt him. I know how in love with Louis he is. Harry is just so kind at heart, he always goes back to Louis thinking he's changed. I feel bad for the lad. Harry definitely deserves better.

"Come." I said while opening my arms for him. He came and let me hold him. He was sobbing and crying. I just let him get my shirt wet with his broken tears.

"Why do I do this to myself? Why am I constantly letting Liam get Louis? Why am I just not good enough for him? Why does he need a guy that doesn't respect him the way I do? More importantly, why do I respect someone who doesn't give a shit about me?" He asked me with his voice full of pain. There was nothing j could do but hold him tightly and let him cry into my chest.

"Maybe because you're just so head over heels for a guy that stole your heart at the age of twelve. You trusted him so much times, this became a routine." I said back. Truth will always be better than lying to him. Maybe he'll open his eyes and realize that Louis isn't the best for him. I hate how Louis just has him wrapped around his finger. He even knows it.

"God I hate myself." He whispered into my chest. I lifted his head so he would look me in the eyes. I saw all the pain, it was so visible I could feel it. Just the look on his broken face made my heart ache for this poor guy in my arms.

"Don't hate yourself, it's not your fault. Louis is the one that chose to Liam. You just stood by, because there was nothing for you to do. You're my best mate and seeing you like this really hurts me. Don't hate yourself for something you don't have control over." I told him with every angry feeling I had towards Louis and Liam for making Harry feel like this.

Harry began crying even harder and cuddled into me again. He cried so long and I held him. His broken sobs filled the room, all I wanted to do was beat the shit out of Louis. For so many reason.

When we first met Louis, Harry would go on and on about Louis and not realize what a big crush on him he had. Harry didn't know that he was gay then, after a couple months they finally became a couple. Louis would go flirt it up with other guys and Harry would cry to me. They would talk it out an they became perfect again.

Over the years, Louis would do more worst things. Like make out with other guys, sleep with others guys. The worst thing Louis has done was break up with Harry for Liam only to have his heart be crushed by Liam. All those times it was the same, Harry would be here in my arms crying. Now Louis did it again. Broke up with Harry. Louis is a real slut ass whore.

Harry started to calm himself down and he moved out of my arms, I knew what was coming next.

"Zayn?"

"Yeah mate?"

"I have to show you something."

He slowly lifted his sleeve up his arm. I actually didn't know this is what was going to happen. All along his arm was little pink cuts. They look deep and hurtful. I gently grabbed his arm an looked closely at it.

"It's the only way I can feel sometimes." He whispered out. "Louis didn't notice." He whispered again.

Tears started falling from my own eyes as looked at the cuts in his arm. How could my best friend hurt himself over a guy that's hurt his soul? I get it but I didn't know how far it went. Now I know how damaged this boys heart is.

"Harry.." I chocked out through my own hurt. Hurt for him, hurt for seeing my own best friend that I would call a brother. My brother fucking hurt himself over a guy! What the fuck.

He pulled his arm away from me and he slowly opened his bed side drawer and pulled out something I really wasn't expecting. I had full on sobbed and took that thing away from him. It was a noose.

"That's how much I'm hurting for someone who could give no shits about me." He said. I took the thing and look over it. More sobs left my mouth at the thought of Harry hanging from a tree or hanging from the ceiling.

I threw that thing to the floor and pulled my brother back into my arms. "No one should ever feel like this. Harry please don't leave me. Don't you dare leave me. I need you so bad." I cried into his shoulder. He cried into mine. He was whispering sorry into my ear like he did something bad. He didn't though, it was Louis.

I will never let Louis near my brother ever again.

Authors Note:

Wow... That's sad. I'm really sorry for this really sad chapter. I can't sleep. It's 4am and nothing makes sense to me.

I guess I'll sleep now. Goodnight everyone ✌