Her POV
"He's not even worth it" Gaia snapped as if she wants to wake me up as if I'm dreaming
I yawned lazily and hugged my throw-pillow.
Oh god I miss him
"Earth to Sai, Biatch are you even listening?" I rolled my eyes and gently kicked her
"Naririnig kita. I... we just need closure. That's all" I hissed
Niyakap ko muli ng mahigpit ang unan ko trying to convince myself. Kailangan ko matauhan kung yun nga ang kailangan. Matagal na din mula ng hindi niya ko kausapin. Hindi ko alam basta bigla na lang, I can't even figure it out. We're happy that's all I know. Then all of the sudden he started to loose up.
Thank god na andito yung bestfriend ko wasting time with me, getting wasted, pigging out and sleep all day long.
Napatayo ako fuck. Realization just hits me. "I need to move"
"Congratulations! After 3months grabe i'm so proud of you Sapphire Ileana" she said while clapping
"Ewan ko sayo" habang tinatawanan niya ko ng malakas. Very supportive.
Agad kong hinanda ang susuotin ko at pabalik balik tinititigan ang sarili ko sa salamin
I should be ready for this. I should stop slowing things up. Marami na kong sinayang na oras
Buong tapang kong tinipa ang numero niya sa cellphone ko... Oh shit.
"Hello?" A very manly voice answered
"L..let's meet. Same place." kinagat ko ang iba bang labi ko para pigilan ang naipon kong emosyon...
ouch I whispered
"Okay." Then he hangs up
Okay.. okay. Ano ba 'tong pinasok ko?
"Can you please stop. Just.. stop" I closed my eyes tightly to make my tears stop
I don't know what I've did wrong. All I know is I should not be feeling this way in the first place.
"Alright. I'll let you go." He said in a low flat tone
Hindi ko na napigilan at tuluyan na akong tumakbo ng tumakbo. Hindi naman dapat eh kung sana mas pinili kong wag na.
Dapat hindi ko na pinilit pa una pa lang. Binigay ko lahat, my whole fucking heart. Everything. Wala na kong tinira sa sarili ko.
I don't know if I could still handle this.
Barefooted I rushed into the rain up to nowhere, I can't even feel the pain in my bleeding feet and i'm losing air.
the last thing I knew is people are shouting
and everything went black.
