Something More (Hold)

9

AVA'S POV

8weekslater

Boy do I have a story to tell you. Well let me just say it. I think I'm pregnant. Yeah I know. I'm in shock to. I have missed my women time twice and I have been feeling extremely sick lately. I haven't told anyone though and I don't plan on until I am a hundred percent sure. I took a cheap drugstore pregnancy test and it came back positive but I booked a doctors appointment to get a real result. And let's just say I'm bricking myself. If I am pregnant it will put my dance career on hold for at least a year and it's all just getting good. And Rye. I don't wanna ruin his life so young. God I've been a wreck these few days. I haven't spoke to the boys for a while because I just can't bring myself to. But I have meeting with Blair tonight at the flat so I'm gonna have to speak to them.

"Ava Harrison please." The doctor calls. I reluctantly get up and follow the doctor into the room, luckily It was a women which made me a little bit happier.

"Hello darling what can I help with?" She asks.

"I think I might be pregnant but I want to know for sure."I tell her.

"Okay sweetie. You just need to pee in this tub and it'll take a few minutes." She says handing me a tub. I walk out of the room and into the bathroom. Luckily I needed the toilet pretty often so that wasn't a problem. But boy it's hard to pee in a little tub. I take the tub to her and she sorts it out.

"So were you planning a baby?" She asks me.

"No." I say.

"Is the boy your boyfriend?" She asks.

"Well kind of. It's hard to explain." I say.

"Okay well let's take a look." She says. She turns round does something then turns back to me. "Your pregnant. Congratulations."

Oh god!

After endless hours of crying I made my way to the flat. If your thinking why don't you get an abortion, no. I'm not killing a defenceless baby. Trust me I've thought about everyone possible route. I arrive at the flat and knock on the door. I wait for an answer and it turns out to be Brooklyn, which I was happy about if I'm telling the truth I can't face Rye. And your probably thinking when is she gonna tell him, not yet. I need to sort everything out with my parents first then I'll tell him.

"Hello Ava, long time no see."Brooklyn smiles giving me a hug.

"Hello Brook." I reply. He lets me in the house and I reluctantly walk into the boys bedroom. (At the old flat because when I started writing they still lived there.) I look around and see them all doing there own thing.

"Hello Ava." Mikey says. I give him a weak smile. I look over at Rye and he just looks at me without saying anything.

"Now you wanna talk." Rye says.

"I've been busy." I say looking down I did not want to talk to him.

"Busy. Okay." He says sarcastically. I just look out of the window trying to avoid eye contact.

"Rye leave it. Are you okay Av?" Jack asks standing up.

"I suppose, just got a lot on my mind." I sigh trying my hardest not to cry.

"You can talk to me if you want, anytime."Jack smiles.

"Thanks Jack."I say giving him a hug.

"Hello Ava lets go talk."Blair says walking into the other bedroom.

Me and Blair just spoke about future plans which would all be ruined when I tell him I'm pregnant. But I didn't tell him. He asked me to stay and stop with the boys for a bit which I really didn't want to because I'm not in the right frame of mind to sit with Rye who was the father of my child and he didn't know it. God I hate myself right now. I am just sat in the couch hiding a massive secret from all of the boys. And Rye. And Blair. Oh god. I start to panic. I get up and leave the room walking into the bathroom and shutting the door. I bend over the toilet and throw up. I wash my face and swirl water around my mouth. I slide down the door and burry my head in my hands.

"Ava. You okay?" I hear a familiar voice say. I open the door and Harvey is stood with a concerned look on his face. He walks in and shuts the door behind him. I just burst out crying and burry myself in his chest.

"It's okay." He says moving the hair out of my face. "Do you want to talk about it?" He asks.

"I do, I really do. But I can't. Not yet." I sigh.

"Well when your ready you've got me. I know Rye's being a dick he's just mad you haven't spoke." Harvey tells me.

"Thanks Harv." I say looking up at him. He wipes a tear from under my eye with his thumb and smiles.