Silence Is The Biggest Plea

Chapter Five

It had been two weeks since that deal was made and funny enough, I was still alive.

It was true I hadn't had suicidal thoughts since that night either and of course the reason for that was Tate.

You'd think that after having made a 'deal' like that I would feel awkward, when really, I felt quite the opposite. By making that deal, it made a drive in me...although Tate was originally my only lifeline, I know had another and it brought me almost a feel of determination to make it too the end of the year and to top it off, Tate and I were closer than ever before. Besides that though, life went on as usual, I continued to go to my appointments to the psychologist every Saturday morning though the strange part was, she didn't ask me any questions about Silently Screaming, I didn't mind but. I just wanted to get out of there and anyway, ever since I had become closer with Tate. I didn't have much time to read it. Tate and I still hadn't kissed yet and too be honest, I sort of dreaded the moment we did. I didn't even know how to kiss someone who wasn't your family and really I didn't even know what our relationship status even was, I just found everything do confusing.

That Saturday afternoon, two weeks later, as I was recovering by watching TV from the draining morning I had spent at the physiologist office, I heard a knock at the door.

I got up from my comfortable position on the couch and walked over to the door, I opened it and there was Tate. He had his usual red grey lead pencil behind his ear, his hair was parted neatly and he was wearing a black leather jacket, in his hand were white gardenias.

"Tate!" I said surprised "Come in" I moved away from the door and jestured a hand towards the living room.

Tate walked into the living room, looking around for a moment before looking back at me "These are for you" he said extending out his right arm to give them to me.

I slowly took the bunch of gardenias off him, the smell was overwhelming but beautiful. I had never been gifted flowers before by anyone.

"Their beautiful...thank you" I said genuinely.

"Not a problem" Winked Tate with his gorgeous hazel eyes "Now, I know this is completely unexpected and I know you haven't had any time to get ready but will you go out with me?"

I stared at him.

"Now? As in right now?"

"Right now" he said "I know it's sudden but I was at home, when I thought tonight's a beautiful night and it's only natural too take out a beautiful girl on a beautiful night like this. And now I'm here"

I still hadn't gotten used to him complementing what I looked like, it still made me well up with butterflies.

"Maybe I don't want to go" I teased making a loud fake yawn "Maybe I'm too tired" I stretched my arms over my head.

"Well then I should let you know, I won't leave without a yes. Also if it makes it more tempting I've packed a whole picnic for us filled with toasted cheese sandwiches"

"God your persuasive- let me get my coat"

Twenty minutes later after first having grabbed my favourite dark red coat, writing my mom a note explaining where I was in case she came home from work and I still wasn't home we were now in Tate's car. "Where are we going exactly?" I asked.

"It's a surprise. We're nearly there though..."

And sure enough five minutes later we had drove into a car park outside of a park, their were many other cars also parked here as well.

We got out of the car, Tate holding a large picnic basket in one and my hand in the other, leading me into the park as the radiant stars shone overhead.